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WHERE IS MY CONFIDENCE?
Alright, I hate myself for having nothing called confidence.
I used to have one big chunk of it in the past.
But I left non of that right now.
In the past, no doubts -yes I have them.
Ever since I graduated from secondary school and enter poly, I'm less talkative already.
I have that kind of attitude that I dont want to make new friends.
I have that kind of attitude that I dont want to talk too much about myself.
I realised I will only choose to make friends whom are less devilish.
Gradually, and slowly, I forgotten when my confidence started to flunk.
Whenever I start to have presentations, I really started to shiver and my voice really trembled.
My eyes will become very watery, as if I cried. But I did not.
And whenever I start to speak to a bigger crowd, I automatically lower my volume to 50%.
Whenever it comes to presentations, or facing teachers or people who decides pass or fail, in or out kinds, my mind will go blank.
After presentations or exams, I started to blame myself for not having guts and everything.
that feeling sucks. I feel negative. I think there's a problem with me.
Maybe I have anti-social personality disorder - I mean it.


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Joey Yew.
Peixin Pri, Northland Sec, NYP
Born with goldspoon, and badly pampered. I’m mean, arrogant with my own attitude.
- That’s me.



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