Alright, here comes my grumbling again.
Hey bloggers, do u feel sometimes feel that we are contradicting ourselves?
I think I am one of them ;(

When I started this new link, I thought not much people would link me.
After that, I realised that 80% of whom I know, had happily linked me for quite some times.
And suddenly, I got that kind of feeling that I'm being spied.
Yeap, sounds like I'm crazy.
Of course, I have a blog bec I want to grumble.
But when too many people read, I felt being spied.
But if I felt being spied, I should just locked the bs up.
But if I lock the bs up, it doesnt make sense to have a bs.
Ahhhhh, hope at least one or two gets what I meant.

Over the time, I think I'm unable to really speak up my mind and thoughts through bloggings.
Some stuff really pisses me off. For instance, let's say you know someone for probably a few years, and both of you are very close. But when he or she pisses you off, you just cant blog it out and it will be kept inside ur chest for sometimes. If you dont blog, then you will have that kind of feeling that why cant I let the person knows what is wrong with him or her. But when you blog, its like I'm being totally mad & unethical to do that to someone else bec of humanrights! ARGH!

Nah, I have no complaints right now. Just suddenly feel that I have completely change into another person after entering nursing! Kind of frustrated with myself. When you study too much of the basic laws, you tend to abide it. Damn. Whatever ethics or some shits that you have learnt. And after so many psychology modules, you will tend to keep everything to yourself like angers and sadness. So blog is something that really get partial portion off my chest.

Alright, I have only started talking at the age of 4. So yeah, I've talked alot in schools in the past yeah? Especially rubbish bec I'm an expert. And that is to compensate for the years when O was mute. After entering poly, I start to quieten alot alot alot. Though I smile alot nowadays, I feel like speaking up more. But I'm kind of having that ''lazy-to-open-mouth" syndrome. And alot of things are affecting me seriously nowadays. And I dont really have guy-friends to really discuss about it. Not that I dont have friends, but sometimes it just really irk me when I have to repeat the whole story again then explain why and how I feel in that manner. And sometimes when you speak to a girl-friend, they will add on rubbing salt to the wound. AHHHHHHHHHHH! Eh, something is really wrong with me.

Whatever it is right now - I dont know what I'm typing too.

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