Sometimes, I find it hard to survive in my house.

I dont like it when I have to apologise for everything.

I do not voice out doesnt mean I agreed on everything.

I dont take extra money from my dad, doesnt mean I'm awesomelly loaded. When I'm fucking broke, I didnt even give a damn to open my mouth to ask for it, bec I will never ever be able to get a single cent. I've tried once, and I got fcuking screams and yells from my dad in the middle of the night. When I went out to strike my time to earn some extra cash for my own stuff that I wanted, they said I waste money.

Excuse me, you should know that I always save like a fcuk time just to buy something that I wanted badly. And there my dad would claim that I'm using his money. And when I'm working and in the meanwhile saving for something, he would claim how holly I am in saving money, and he starts to dock my allowance.

When it comes to my sisters, I sometimes feel like strangling them. They are very alike, smart in similar subjects, great in studying, great at arts, piano or whatever. Yeah, I'm just a 3mins person. Squash, ballet, hiphop, studies - nothing is successful. JUST SHUTUP. But I use my own hands to earn and buy whatever fuck I want. At least till now, from sec2 holidays I started working. then later sec 4, I started working at bakery then later at peachgarden. From mid november all the way to april. AND EVEN WHEN I'M IN NURSING NOW, I'M STILL CONSIDERED WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL. But my younger sister done no-job before, and she doesnt know th meaning of hardwork money. So what is so big about study?

GO AHEAD AND CRY YOUR LUNGS OUT?

I wont even do CPR for you.

I seriously DO NOT LIKE IT, AND I HATE bringing up family matters.
But sometimes, YOU JUST DONT HAVE THE RIGHT PERSON TO TALK TO!

For today's incident, I dont think I'm at any wrong.

What did I say that could make you cry like a fcuking 3hours?

HILARIOUS!

I said one sentence that I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO USE THE SCANNER THAT'S WHY I ASK YOU TO HELP ME SCAN. IF NOT WILL I ASK YOU TO SCAN?

But, did I say ANYTHING else?

Oh holly, you cried for 3 hours. Are you turning blind?

tell me if I did say anything else.

Yeah, your tears moved the whole world except me.

Dream on if you are hoping me to APOLOGISE to you.

Go around and say how bad I am, how fcuk I am also can.

I just cant be bothered.

I dont say doesnt mean I'm alright.

I didnt disagree doesnt mean that I agreed.

I kept my mouth shut doesnt mean I have no objection.

I dont cry easily doesnt mean I dont cry at all.

My attitude is something that you all trained me to be, didnt you guys realised?

Just bec I'm the middle one, and I will get comparisons either with the elder sis or younger sis.

Forever, I will get comparisons.

- I dont know. maybe 17?

- I dont need a guy in order to live.

- sry, I think I need to go answer my phone. {WTF}