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2011-11-16T21:56:00.001-08:00

Alright,

Back to work.
Work had been good.
But sometimes, I felt a little helpless.

I felt like I have no close friends in the department, except one or two who are always scheduled different shift. Joy no longer in the department, and that makes me even lonelier. I wouldnt agree more that the pinoy population is getting higher. To be honest, I dont mind at all because they are pretty nice. Just the fact that I couldnt blend into them. Same goes to other races, I couldnt really blend into their languages either.

And thus, I just have to find something else to do when I'm free in the department. But it seems that it was wrongly implied like I'm a hardworking staff, trying to be recognized and then aimed for promotion. I overheard about it when I walked past the pantry.

I felt pretty upset about it. I admit that I'm very strict with certain patient care and I could be pretty unfriendly when it comes to compromising certain procedures. But all these that I did, was not for promotion.

I swear I'm not doing these for promotions, and I dont care. It's pretty ridiculous to say a nurse doing all these just to get promotions (when its totally the responsibility of a nurse). I've been looking for stuff to do, because I'm someone who gets really bored and someone who couldnt sit still. Moreover, the ratio of chinese staff to other races = 4: 20 ?

Why have these became so political?
Promotions when I'm not even a year old?
I'm out.

I dont need these.
I just want peace, seriously.

2011-06-15T17:29:00.000-07:00

WOOOOO :D

Life is too busy for me.
I'm so dead tired, really so tired.
Hehs, but still I'm enjoying.
I'm just wondering why Yishun has so many collapsed cases.

Jjangg!
I bought a new watch from GSS :D
(Although its an old model)

UP - $120
Sales - $97 !

UP: $85
Sales: $69
(But I forgo the chance since its a bit madness if I'm getting both)

The reason why I got the adidas was because its not rubber type so its easier for me to disinfect it after work. Hmmm... If I were to get the Puma.. hehehes.
--

Oh yes, yesterday I sent one case up to certain place.
Oh man, they dont know what's spinal nursing & not knowing what the fuck is log roll.
I feel like punching them, like seriously. And nobody was taking the initiative to come forward & help. Aigooooooooooo.
--

Time to prepare for work again.
BYEBYE.

2011-04-25T08:29:00.000-07:00

MY BOYFRIEND.
I LOVE YOU.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2011-03-16T10:32:00.000-07:00

Just to say - I'm still alive.
Busy dieting.

2011-01-26T05:48:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to control myself to tolerate all these nonsense.
I know I'm just being childish to slash everything on blog like a kid.
But I am going to save money now asap, get a condo, and give myself a new life since I cant apply for hdb. No matter how much my debts gonna be, I dont care. Just one more year to my freedom. And I do hope that I'm no different from an orphan. So dad, continue siding ur eldest. And mom, continue siding the youngest. Yes, where's my grandmother? She's dead. So where can I cry and hug now? Air. So air is like my parents, and tears is my daily essential work. I'm so fucking stress, extremely tired, and sick of the society. I just need a complete carefree day. Just one day, so stop giving me rubbish.

PT asked me. What are you going to do with your first pay? He asked me, bike? TV? Iphone? I told him I wanted a holiday. He smiled, let's go Ireland. I'll bring you back to see my family. I laughed but still, that couple of minute let me stayed away from stress.

I just need a friend who can talk to. I dont need a boyfriend, because it aint gonna be realistic for me. A friend who understand all bloody shit, is good enough.

2011-01-22T07:27:00.000-08:00

I'm so gonna do this. I need to find a way to throw my pride away. So I can be firm with whatever shit I'm gonna do. Hmmmmm. HAHAHAHA. Anyway, 7weeks of attachments completed, left with another 5more weeks. OMG, I cant wait for everything to finish. Alright, 7 weeks of attachments, and I have shed off 4kg plus. Amazing, isnt it? AHAHAHA. Those who find themselves fat and unable to shed off your fats like me, you can come join nursing. I bet you will be fasting everyday for 10hours since you wont be able to go for breaktime which allow you to grab something heavy. :D Okay, After next week, I'll be happier. Because it goes like 4, 3, 2, 1. BYE. :D

Sayoooonara~ bbyeong~

2011-01-04T08:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

Brand new year.
Brand new decade of my life.
Brand new thoughts.
Brand new start.

2010-12-31T03:14:00.001-08:00

2011 RESOLUTIONS!

(I'm going to post this NOW, since I'm going to countdown in my ward TONIGHT. )
(An incredible way of welcoming 2011. )

1. To get back my waist, since I cant see any of it now.
I need to shed off from 54kg back to 50kg ;D

2. I want to graduate, fast.

3. I'm going overseas for holiday as much as I can.

4. I hope to balance between family & work. (this is the hardest)

5. I'm going to search more about ARTS academy. I dont know why, but I'm starting to love acting. HAHAHAHHAHAA. Shall see....

Okay, byeeeee 2010. Here I come - 2011. I'll try not to grumble after it strikes 12midnight. I need a brand new year, brand new attitude. I need a brand new self. HEEEEEEEE~

2010-12-24T04:32:00.000-08:00

I dont think I can be a nurse. I think I'll go nuts soon.
It's been 3 years. But there's never a time that I can handle death in the ward.
My tear ducts just burst unknowingly. I hate it.

Today was just crisis and I just cant take it anymore.
I'm going crazy. I'm going crazy.

Hypoglycaemia 0.8mmol/L. Freaking low like madness. I almost fainted upon seeing the reading. His eyes were big, so big and not blinking. Even without pentorch, I can already see that his pupil was super dilated. I called him, tapped him, he wasnt even responding though his eyes were wide opened. My legs - wobbly...

With that kind of anxiety, running to the doctors who were all pooled together for doctors round. He, as a professor, shall not gain my respect anymore. I was looking for the doctor in charge (doctor X), and I waited for the prof to stop talking then I tapped Doctor X.

I'm already sweating out, tell him about his patient condition that is 0.8mmol/L (Pt can die, btw). Can you pls come out for a while? Patient is unresponsive.

This Doctor X is a very nice doctor, maybe he's still considered new. (Maybe I already fallen in love with him, cos he's darn handsome.) LOL. I'm just kidding. He's not my type, but he's handsome. On another hand, he's 10 years older than me.

Before he opened his eyes wide, the prof scolded me in front of them.
" Do you know what's doctor's round? Do not disturb. Get another doctor"

I was about to cry cos I DONT SEE ANY DOCTORS since ALL of you are all here. *Idiots*
" No, but patient BGM is 0.8mmol/L! "

Prof: "I said do not disturb. go find yourself another doctor"

I was damn pissed off. I'm about to scold him as a useless doctor and so called prof with just a status. I will scold him, soon. I dont care whether I'm a student or staff. Patient comes first, morons. And, there's no such things as not able to disturb doctors round. Doctors round is about knowing patient better, isnt it? And throughout these years, nurses have to report to doctors regarding patients condition. Why are you telling me to search for other doctors bec I'm a student? Yeah, trying to discriminate me? You , wait and see.

Just nice, there's this doctor who walked past. He wasnt even from my ward you know! But at least he knows what is urgent! I rolled my eyes at prof & ran towards this doctor. GOD, you didnt know how thankful I was when I saw the presence of this doctor.

I was like. " I'mm I'mm, sorry Doctor! Patient bgm is 0.8 NOW, and is unresponsive. Can you please help me? He's unresponsive!"

And obviously, the doctor saw that bloody pool of doctors over there. But he didnt care but HELPED ME IMMEDIATELY. (He's quite high post actually) Then finally, when he walked over, the doctor-in-charge quickly ran over. Omg, Doctor X. I did pondered why you need to care about that prof when your pt is dying. God.

I'm always angry with my doctors. They also think they are high up above the sky while I'm worst that the core of the earth. Why?

I do hate my job. But I know the importance about a life at stake. If you know you can save them, why not? Why do you have to wait till patient plunged all the way to the minimum for maximum resus? why why why? Doctors and nurses are different. Doctors chose to become doctors for saving people. Nurses are about passion or no choice because their academy might suck to hell. Doctors, you can choose! But why are you forgetting the basic reason after climbing so high up of a position? You dont deserve my respect, I'm sorry. And I'm sorry, this is the last sorry that I'm gonna say.

2010-12-17T21:24:00.000-08:00

Dear daddy,

I dont know what's going on . Have you ever wondered why I didnt like to talk much at home? Yeah, you are the reason. I do not see any needs for you to scream when you open your mouth, really. I'm not saying you not open your mouth, but I just hope that you could use a nicer tone at home, to us. You dont come everyday, do you? So I dont see a need for you to scream when seeing us.

Since young, though you dont extremely dote us, it is pretty obvious that you a bit more concern over the eldest while my mum will dote on the youngest one. No, dont be mistaken. I'm not complaining about the equality at home. Neither am I jealous, bec I'm used to it for the past 19 years. But I hate it when in front of our relatives, you treated us like a good daddy who says YES to our everything. I hate how fake and hideous fact this is.

I dont know how much you earn per month, since you claimed that you only earn $1500 per month while the number of Rolex watches and cars you have do made me doubt it. Oh, whatever. It's not as if I'm aiming for your money. If you do not know, I dont care about it. I know you are extremely stingy over money matters, and also getting over angry small little amount of $100 when youngest daughter wants to learn drawing. I'm sick of this nonsense that made no single sense over why a dad can stop a child for doing what they like. I want to learn many things, and I know I have to get the money myself, somehow. And I hate listening to your yellings on phone or face to face when I want to ask you for money. So I went on doing my part time job at age of 14. I was slogging for salary as low as $4/hour in a restaurant as a waitress. Because I wanted to re-learn my ballet again, I even requested the manager dont give me offdays unnecessarily. The money I earned, ended up learning hiphop dance. It's so expensive that I decided to drop out after 2 months. Then I decided to start saving for my braces but in no time, school started - I quitted. Of course, the money slowly spent off since its really abit left.

After sec 4, I started working again - in bakery & in a restaurant. For the sake of my braces, I endured. Ah, finally I have the money for the first braces downpayment, so I went to the dental. The dental was pretty new at that time and I get the package bec it includes xrays, retainer, moulds, braces and whitening, which total up to $5000. I paid $2000 for the first payment, then since its instalment, I shall slowly work and pay. I didnt think of wanting you to pay bec you always say later and later for many years, so I might as well pay myself and not see your mood. When you found out that I went to get my braces done, you raged and claimed that I am very rich to do all these things without letting you know. Hey dad, do you not know on the first day of my work that I'm working for braces? And after know that I did my braces, you asked me to quit my job and focus on studies and you will pay the rest. To make things straight to the point, you were the one who asked me to quit and you yourself say will pay and note that you paid the remaining $3000. Yes, its not a small amount but you told all my relatives that I'm wasting your money and doing things without letting you know and said my braces cost you $5000.

On the first day of O level, I broke my specs. Yeah, O level. So all I need to hurry is to get a spec on spot. The new spec with frames on spot cost me $200. Do you rmb that you screamed at the top of your lungs at me? If I were to just change the lenses, it will cost $130/pair. Bec its urgent for the sake of O level, I really ANYHOW grab a famed-specs that cost $70 more.

This time round - crowning. My dentist charged me $950 instead of $1200 cos I'm still under treatment for braces though I'm now already wearing retainer phase. You already screamed at me at that time and you firmly said that its only $400 in the dental market. I did a research around, calling about 40 dental clinics and the cheapest I got was $835 after 7% GST. I called you today, and you yelled in phone like nobody business. Why is it that you do not understand that when my molar tooth cracked, I'm super in pain and only the DENTAL that I KNOW operates on Sundays? It's a difference of $100. Yes, $100 enables you to buy lots of stuff. But, can you please kindly spare a thought for me? I'm in pain, and I'm not like the rest who can take anagelsic drugs. If you are so not happy about the $100, I will raise that money. Dont scream on phone, I hate it and I bet you screamed in your company so all your workers looked at you and thus they will be scared of you, cos via this, you gained power. No dad, I dont need these.

Please let me remind you, the time I get money from you was for braces - $3k.
I only started getting pocket money from you since poly, while I struggled my pocket money in secondary school with what my mom, your wife, gaved.

If I have a chance, and when I have the money. Trust me, I will fly away to somewhere where I'm all alone with myself. I will live better, healthier and happier. I dont want to be heartless, but you made me wanna stay alone with myself. You destroyed my thoughts of having a boyfriend. To me, all guys seemed scary and useless now. To me, seems like all guys are stingy. To me, all guys are as bad tempered as you. I'm not that stupid to get myself into troubles with guys that have any characteristc traits of yours. I'm afraid, one day - I might commit suicide bec I see your shadow in him.

2010-12-12T04:08:00.000-08:00

Telling myself to control my attitude but it doesnt look like I can do a self-control given a situation like this. My old characters are showing out one by one when I saw the bunch of health care personnel who are highly respected by the public are actually soooooooooooooo arrogant. Why do people changes so quickly when they have a better status? Cant they just think of why they chose their job initially? hmmm...

A person who chose to become a doctor are 99% bec they want to treat people & make the society a healthier and happier place to survive in while 1% of them did so just for sake of salary.

A person who chose to become a nurse are 99% bec they have no choice, while 1% of them did so just because they felt contented in helping the needy ones.

When a nurse grumbles, yeah. I know that nurses shouldnt.
But when a doctor becomes arrogant, just cant they think of WHY THE FUCK DID THEY COME INTO DOCTORING?! If u guys so much of wanting to help the needy ones, cant u just spare a thought of the behind-scene-workers? I hope nurses dont work on nurses' day so doctors work themselves and know the importance of our lowly-paid job. Stop looking down on us. I'm gonna take the shit and aim on ur faces!!!

2010-12-09T01:39:00.001-08:00

I'm speechless over how this system of this thing works. I'm angry, I'm crazy, I'm just feeling total helpless. It's getting on my nerves. I need a place for a short runaway. For the clients that we pledged to serve, seemed total meaningless to me now. The organization doesnt care about us yet they want us to serve the best for their client. In an organization of HEALTH, their health seemed to be more important than OURS. Hey, please be slightly more considerate to us - be it student or full pledged staff. If one by one they get burnt out, that's it. This organization wont last long, and dream on if you have intention of building another organization. When its gonna be full of your clients, HAHA. Dear HR, you shall do what your STAFF always does. Let you guys have the taste of what it meant by burnt out in short period.

Suddenly, I hope there's a LIKE button that facebook always has - so my friends could click the like button here.

2010-11-21T02:43:00.000-08:00

Note to Self:

1. I'm not telling you it is going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it.

2. They tell you to just (BE URSELF) & then they (JUDGE U).

3. Ur aim is somewhere on the top. Climb up.

4. U cant stay in ur corner of the forest waiting for others to come to you. YOU have to go to them sometimes.

5. Just be who you want to be. Not what others want to see.

6. Do things with passion or not at all wherever you go. Go with all your heart.

7. Believe in urself & go for it. - Emma Watson.

8. DESTROY WHAT DESTROYS YOU.

9. To be the best, you have to handle the worst.

10. Truth is, everyone is gonna hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

11. Dont regret anything you do, cause in the end it makes you who you are.

12. Say Yes more than No.

13. It's time to take the risk, sweetheart.

14. You try, you fail. You try, you fail. But the only true failure is when you stop trying.

15. Being part of something special, makes you special.

16. I'M POSSIBLE.

17. My head goes 'WHO CARES?', my heart says 'YOU DO, STUPID!'

18. The time to be happy is now. The place to be happy is here.

19. I hsve no special talents. I am only passionately curious. - Albert Einstein

20. Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity.

2010-10-18T10:40:00.000-07:00

I was turning on my laptop webcam just to look at my pimples.
Then, I'm amazed with how round & flat my nose is :D
Or rather, I'm rather amazed with my nose for the past 19 years :D

Buvan said attachment is not easy.
I'm scared, now.

2010-10-16T02:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so freaking tired despite the fact that I'm having sufficient hours of sleep.
Oh whatever. Went to Japanese class on friday, as usual - I'm alone. They were discussing on the comprehension, TITLED - バレンタインデー . [read as: be-ren-tain-de--]

For your info, this comprehension is about during バレンタインデー , chocolates are exchanged in Japan. As the economy was doing better, chocolates have alr made its way as a door gift.. blah blah blah. When a guy want to confess, chocolate will be the best idea. This is how chocolate business started to soar with the バレンタインデー [barentainde] for バレンタイン[barentain]. Okay, I really understand this entire comprehension, except the meaning of this バレンタインデー .

I swear, I made a fool of myself.
Sensei [teacher] pointed at me.

I stood up, "Hai...?"
Sensei: バレンタインデーはなんですか ? [What is be-ren-tain-de--?]

I know its a day of something. But I dont know what the hell is berentain!
So I replied to her in japanese saying that ...

Me: " It's a berentain の day."
Sensei: "そうそう.. この[バレンタイン]はなんですか ?" [Okay, but what does THIS berentain means.]
Me: すみません, も一度ください. [I'm sorry, please repeat again]
Sensei: バレンタインデーはバレンタインのデーです. それから,この[バレンタイン]はなんですか ?" [Berentainde is berentain'day like what u said. So, therefore, what does berentain refers to?]

GUESS WHAT THE HELL DID I SAY WITHOUT THINKING?

I told her that .. I think its a country.
Darn bloody shit. The whole class laughed.

It's actually...
VALENTINESDAY.

What the fuck, srsly.

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As usual, saturday[Today] - Japanese Class too.
I went in late, best. The first thing I open the door, I have to say goodmorning & sorry for being late in jap then she said the same thing to me too. It's darn embarrassing :O

The first head tilt for my eyes to focus on whiteboard:
Final Year Examination
11 November - composition exam.
12Nov - Oral.
16Nov - Listening&dictation.
20Nov - Main paper.

--Good Game. --

Okay, I have to say this. Julia&her sis in Japan. The one who sat beside me for 2lessons, went on MC. So I have to listen like mad crazy since no one would be nice to translate for me to english. Yes, I realized I understand what Ryoko Sensei was talking - most of the times. But there was this group of idiots seated right in front of me. They were making a fool of the jap teacher. They are like, in mid-twenties. Fucking childish. Ok, my friends should know that when I'm stressed, I'll get very irritated easily. So these assholes were imitating her english pronounciation. IDIOTS, YOU EXPECT A JAP TO SPEAK ENG LIKE AN ENGLISHMAN? It's not my prob, but then if u want to laugh at people, at least keep it till after lesson or laugh softer! Omg. The students at the front kept looking back. Lucky I sit alone, I have no share on that please. I bet the sensei heard them, its just that she kept quiet. Then they keep laughing, giggling. Worst, they burped & laughed. Total disgust.

Okay, class ended. I walked all the way to the lobby. The students are pushing around. Then I saw some students hold on to the compo that sensei returned. I didnt hand in all my compos bec I really dont know how to write. Should I ask her or should I not? I never ask any questions at all in the class before, even though its soon-to-be-2-years, so I kind of scared to ask bec I scared I couldnt understand her explanation in Jap. The lobby door opened, "Shucks, I dont want to fail my final year. I dont want to retain." So I forced my elephant legs back to the class & ask her to teach me one-on-one. My heart almost exploded......... When she ended, she asked if I've never written one at all before. I nodded, then she gave me THREEEEEE compo to write & hand in by next week....

Ahhhh...

2010-10-14T05:36:00.000-07:00

Come to think of it, being a fangirl certainly isn't easy.

1) Money. Supporting your idols, buying their albums, posters and even merchandise can cost a lot. Especially if it's imported from Korea or Japan or even Taiwan. Worst still if you not only have one group bias which I believe applies to most of the fangirls out there.

2) Time. Reading up the news about your idol, browsing blogshops just to get the best deal for your item, collecting the item. Watching variety shows about them, their comeback date and stay at home to watch their Mubank / Mucore / Inkigayo streaming live and them chionging to Youtube to download it. A lot of time ok. One episode is already 1 hour.

3) Studies. Everyone knows that time loss affects homework right? Guess I don't have to explain.

4) Critism. From your friends who aren't into kpop, they say so and so is gay, looks like a girl. Families might not approve of your fandom (heng mine approve whew, but im sure there are people out there who kenna parents scold), and even other fangirls who bash on your idol. Ugh, it takes a lot to keep it in ok. I want to shout the hell out at the people who critize fangirls cause hey, you ain't any better.

-- To clarify, I dont spend much money on them. So far, an album & an ezlink cardholder :D But I cant deny that it affected my bloody studies. Thank goodness, exams over. But at the same time, to be thankful that with presence of kpop, I'm at least able to divert my mood when I'm feeling down.

2010-09-27T06:29:00.000-07:00

I'm just updating now to prove that I'm not dead yet.
My friends are asking me if I'm dead already. I'm not, thanks for ur concern. HAHAHAHAHA.

Life has been boring (sometimes), but well, I'm still enjoying myself with my laptop though I dont really go out often. Or rather, I havent been to elsewhere after exams. Except yesterday - Afifah & Marsie house. And yes, I'm like a frog in the well ehs? Sitting on the rock at Pasir Ris Park in the middle of the night was really nice.. The swashing wave sounds was double clear in the night & it was full moon on saturday :D That was the first time that I really have girls' talk, about some little tiny matters that can be childish yet so true & that's reality.

I'm going to rot without WIFI for 2 days. Mio Broadband is making me angry. The technician can only come on Wednesday. WHAT THE HELL. Yes, I'm using internet now. How? Good question. I'm so desperate to surf the net till I'm here in MacDonald - ALONE.

Okay. I am going for a jog tomorrow morning. Not yet in a diet plan? x) Cos I want to eat icekacang in the afternoon. HEHE. Okay, I'm gone now. My battery is dying. Thank goodness, I have itouch that can keep me up :D Oh, and I changed my itouch screen protector. That person was having a bad time scraping my old protector from my itouch screen. I'm so sorry, you know its never easy to earn my money.

Tadaaaa!!!
I will see you when you see me then :D
Sayooooooonara~Annyeong!!

*her lucifer~*

2010-09-10T01:35:00.001-07:00

Ended my exam papers on wednesday. I think I can pass adnurs5 & sociology.
But hopefully I can manage to pass my management module, I dont mind D, seriously.
I just dont want a sub paper, dont want to retake module. I want to pass out asap.

Okay, anyway I'm happy for the arrival on Monday~!
ED&OT posting is what I've been waiting for ever since I entered nursing. hehehehe. I hope I can see interesting cases and do something :D In that way, then only I will find my existance in nursing. I'm not that kind who's able to sit still in the nurses counter and write documents. I'm a nurse, not an admin. hehe. Best, I'm posted to KTPH~ :D Happy like madness. I think I will get a bicycle then ride there since its only a 15minutes journey? If I take bus, I need to wake up slightly earlier and have to change bus. So I might as well cycle there? (: Can exercise :D

Alright man. Thank goodness today is public holiday, which I'm not even aware of it. hmmm. I was preparing to go for class and it just crossed my eyes on twitter that many are sending wishes to the malays :D so it just goes like, eh? means today no class? HAHA. MEANS I CAN WATCH MY GOODBYESTAGE ON KBSWORLDMUSICBANK. :D

Tata. Another 8minutes for that. See you soon, miss diary :D

2010-08-25T11:24:00.001-07:00

Study plan starts..
Without music, I wonder how I'm gonna continue my revision.
Because of 23Oct, I hv to make sure I have no sub-papers.
My honeys, I'm coming :D

2010-08-23T22:36:00.000-07:00

I think some fans can become professional videographer already. . .
They are better than qualified cameraman. hehe. Thanks to their presence, I have a nice time watching SMtown concert via youtube. Onew, Jonghyun, Onew, Jonghyun. Jonghyun. Jonghyun. Jonghyun. My heart shattered when I watched these videos ,or rather listening to the songs. HEHEHEHE. (: (: (: Okay, I shall make it a must to at least study 1 chapter of Management module or I will never start my revision. HAHAHAHA!

2010-08-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

Went causeway point to get a slipper cos my younger sister spoilt her slippers and I spoilt one too. There was one spare slippers , but both of us can never wear them at the same time! HAHAH, so went to get oneeeeeee. I wanna curse at the sales auntie. Everytime I try one design, she say this one nice, i get a bigger size for you lah? I got very annoyed, and i ignored her after answering her a few times. EVERY SINGLE SHOE I TOUCHED, SHE ASKED THE SAME THING. Ajumma, I know you are trying to promote and its your job to ask customers, but pls - definitely not this exaggerating way that I've never seen this in my whole 19 years on earth living. It's creepy.

Passed by a shop and the shop was playing Ringdingdong, and my mum started doing the dance steps and singing . I am so embarrassed you know, so I just walked faster so she will walk faster too. *fainting* Then we ate at ajisen, followed with popular CD-rama. Took a look at the earpiece, some look damn expensive but at the same time they look unreliable. So didnt get any of them. I'm super particular with earpieces actually, thus I need to really research then get one at a reasonable price since I'm using it every single day. I can never live without my earpiece for my laptop & itouch.

My mum then pointed to Hangeng's newest album, then I was like yeah, then? She said, "u dont know he went solo already meh", I was like, of course I KNOW!!!! then she was like, "I thought you like superjunior then why you not interested?". I went speechless, and said that I like the rest more than him. Then she went "ohhhh heechul huh", and then went especially high when she saw SNSD album. *stunned* yeah, she loves yooonnnnaaaa like mad. She watches every single drama acted by her.

When we reached home, she was reading the newspaper in her room. She suddenly walked out the room and specially flipped the newspaper to the last page for me to show me showbiz news. What is it about? HEECHUL. Omo, what happen to my mother? HAHAHAHA. Nvm, she started SNSD first, not me. HAHAHAHA, sometimes, she know more rumours on showbizs than I do. She knows SHINEE before I even know them. Dont try to play with my mum, she can outbeat you. HAHAHAHA

2010-08-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

My life seems like it have only 6weeks time left.
I cant imagine that I wont be able to get pocket money, in fact I have to give my parents money.
It's not that I'm stingy, but look! $1600 - 20% CPF - giving parents money = $600/month?
I'm on the verge of crying. Can I emigrate now? I hate Singapore, because they deduct our 20% salary. Though its about helping citizens to prevent poor in future, I doubt I could even survive till the day I could touch those money.

I dont care, I'm looking for extra cash jobs. But where?
Probably I should just console myself by photocopying my sister Nus master degree cert and erase her name with mine. Then afterwards, to find a highpost job. Ah, I'm going crazy just for the sake of money.

My mood was ruined since Midnight sharp, bec I saw my attachment schedule and its really horrifying. How can I be having attachment for 2weeks, then break for 6weeks, and then carried on with 16weeks of attachment? While then, the rest are having 6weeks attachment, 6weeks break then 12weeks attachment. Seriously, fuck you nyp. *to this particular schedule coordinator* I'm really tired, really tired, really tired.

Korean class is ending, and I'm intending not to continue unless there's saturday class. Japanese class have to continue since I'm already studying it for the past 1year7months. And I need to chiong my ____ lessons, because I dont want to pay extra money on _____ though it isnt very expensive. I am trying to figure out which bloody days I could fork out to work at Joyce's current yoghurt shop. $120/month is good enough for me as extra cash flow. Someone hire me please? My sister asked me to teach some primary school kids for some tuition but I refused to, because I dont want to get cursed like the way I cursed my teachers for not rooting a good depth in us during primary school. I believe primary school teaching plays a great role in nuturing a child, their education interest, as well as disciplinary. Thus, I dont want to do something that *harm the child and waste their parents' money at the same time.

I need to save money. There's alot of things planned for me to get it asap after I start working. I dont want to rot at home during my leave days, I want to get a life outside of Singapore. I can feel the tension in the society already. I am willing to take the challenges outside, but I'm afraid I am so unfit to handle those shits. Ah, *fainted*

2010-08-02T09:49:00.000-07:00

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING TO ME?
NOTHING IS HAPPENING TO ME , BUT WHY DO I FEEL A DEEP-INTO-VEINS-FUNNY-SAD-EMOTIONS INSIDE ME? Omo, I wonder if I'm being possessed. Feel like laughing yet inside felt sour? People said that weird feelings come when you are about to go. OMG. So, I'm gonna blog it here in case I'm gonna die soon. HAHAHAHA. And yes, what the hell am I typing now?

Just chatted with Handsome. I just simply love to disturb him bec whenever I msn him, even though its just craps, I felt like I am ME, MYSELF. I could feel that I'm alive, I'm existing. *ID protected* Sometimes, I should count myself lucky to have some friends who can tolerate my horrible nonsense & my weird habits. Anyway, this is the first time I felt so restraint to tell him some stuff bec he definitely would just say I'm childish. Omo, I'm dying to spit everything out.

Anyway, I bumped onto 1sec sch friend that day. I thought he was considered a little quiet. HAHAHA, but he wasnt! I took a long time to debate about taxing a relationship could be, even though I'm not experienced! I almost died on spot, bec I'm really bad at articulation. Okay, there's nothing for me to bring it up actually. HAHAHAHA.

I think my elder sister is laughing at me for not able to get a boyfriend at the age of 19. But she didnt know that I'm very not into these shits. For why in the world must I give in and act like small little girl?! Oh no, I prefer to be myself. I my me mine! There's no way I will depend on guys. NEVER! I still prefer to care about myself more than taking care of someone :O pls do not bring in my soon-to-be occupation topic. HAHAHHAA. Is this the reality you wanted? No, this is not I wanted. I'm thinking of earning more money & retire earlier. But once I retired, it means that my lifespan on earth will be .............

Am I dying soon? I think I have some anxiety-disorder...
seriously........ i dont want school to end............
I dont want night shifts.... I still prefer sleeping in lecture halls........

2010-08-01T10:38:00.000-07:00

It means that I need to sleep now.
I'm having no school tomorrow - its a great day!
*reminder for self : Remember to produce mgt essay :O

Thank you AFIFAH for printing those pamphlets, kamsahamnida!
ONDUBU SARANGHAEYO YOU. [idk what i'm doing.]

2010-07-31T11:20:00.000-07:00

I hate this.
I'm crazy now, because of my pure stupidity.

2010-07-27T07:13:00.001-07:00

Daddy, I can change the world to a better one. I want to be the person in charge of the diplomatic ties between countries. I want to get a firm grip on the flow numbers of foreign workers from certain countries. At the same time, I want to make sure I'm the main supplier of toothbrush and toothpaste, so I can supply them cheaply to a certain area. Daddy, do you know why? I thought there were no toothbrush and toothpaste in their area, because they stink & looked filthy. Daddy, is there no females in their area? Why do they like to stare at our boobs, butt, private parts and have a smirk at the corner of their mouth, even when we are just as flat as a block of wood? Daddy, can you lend me your yatch so I can send all their females back to their area? Daddy, pls lend me your yatch or lend me some money, so I can either send them back or send some toothbrush and toothpaste as soon as possible. Daddy, or is it because they dont know how to use or is it because there is nothing call toileting habits in their area? Daddy, do you know I hate to take Mrts whereby I need to jump into those cabins 6times a day? Daddy, I dont like the aroma that they gave us, I'm allergic to that and I'm getting anaphylatic shock soon. Daddy, could you explain why they like to yawn, cough & sneeze without covering their mouth? I dont like the way they inhale oxygen & exhale pollutants in a hard fast way. Daddy, can you please hire 1bodyguard & 1chauffeur for me please? Daddy, I know I'm not pretty but I just dont like the way one filthy and ill-mannered fellow in my class look at me. Everytime he looks at me, there's a disgusting smirk at the corner of his mouth & I felt nauseated. Daddy, are you kind enough to sponsor 10 oral toilet sets for him immediately since he is my classmate? It would be better that you could provide him 50sets or probably life time, but no daddy, he doesnt worth spending money on, so 10sets will do. But daddy, can you hire chauffeur for me since I need transportation every single day to school, for korean classes, for japanese classes, and soon for driving lessons? Daddy, I also dont know why they like to use their dicks to brush against my bag happily, can you explain why? I dont know why they react like that and I'm very scared, daddy why? Daddy, you know I love you, so can you just do these small little favours by answering to my questions above? Yes daddy, I love you, goodnight, saranghaeyo.

2010-07-11T22:09:00.000-07:00

I have a super hard time during today's lab exam. I'm being screamed like madness, but I'm very thankful that the lecturer passed me though she told me straight on my face that I'm gonna get only pass, no more. Before I entered the waiting room, I broke out crying.. Bec I'm super scared, really. Then I thought I would fail when I reached the assessing room, bec there were 3 students who got failed and I'm the first to pass for today. I swear, I've nv been so scared of laboratory exam till today bec there are sooooo many students who failed. I am so stressed, and I don't want to retain half a year.

I'm now declared free from those bloody exam. Now, time for project. 3 projects!!!! And we are so lack of timeeee! I'm going crazyyyy. Okay, 5 more months for PRCP. I' m scared though excited to be graduated...

I should have bet on worldcup since I'm so sure that Spain will win la!!! I might be one of the richest person!!!!! Errr, anyway I got ticked by my dad when I commented my wants to bet on it. Wooooh,and, I got shocked.

Shineeeee! Hwaiting. Jonghyun is so burning hot, okayyyy. He is my booster jab.. Minho, get well soon. Don't hurry, we'll wait for you lahhhh :)

2010-06-24T09:27:00.001-07:00

SHUT UP.
I'M REALLY ANGRY NOW.
I think I'm gonna get laughed, and become a prata soon.
An invitation that cant be rejected, is exactly a killer.
I HATE IT LAH. I'm gonna emigrate out asap once I have a lump sum of money.

2010-06-24T07:57:00.000-07:00

I hate it, really.
I think I need a grip, somewhere & somehow.
I'm trying to drift to somewhere else.

It's starting to get harder to spit things out on blogger.
But at the same time, its stupid to get blogger private.
Yeah, its contradicting.

I hate talking to you nowadays.
I think I'm like a fool, talking to an idiot.
I dont want to be a fool anymore. So idiot, stay there and continue to be an idiot.
Sometimes, I'll just need to be more selfish.

2010-06-17T06:23:00.000-07:00

TODAY is a bad day.
SCV not working, electricity supply got cut due to some stupid repairment in my building.
No mood to study, so I rotted with my Itouch Videos :D

Anyway, went to have dinner. There was this child , estimated to be 7 years old, yelled 'FUCK YOU' at his mum. The mum's face was like, oh, whatever. I was like, wth is this mum doing. If I'm that mother of that bloody kiddo, I make sure I give him 2 tight & sound slaps and make sure I ban him from stepping into the house for 2 hours. My limit to kids are just like that, no joke.

Then right at the other corner, this kid, about 5 years old was crying like a small baby bec his mum doesnt want to let him have a sip of drink. Oh my god, he doesnt cry just once or twice. I think its longer than the time of a song. What are the mums doing these while? They are just getting their ways because you guys didnt control them!

Fine. I think i'm going to be one of the strictest, fiercest and most impatient mum in future. But anyway, most likely not to happen bec I dont want to get surrounded by kids and get strangled by them. Unless my babies' dad is willing to stay at home to look after them. I want my 2-person way of living, my honeymoonssss.

Well, I'm off topic now. I'm just trying to comment on kids nowadays.....

2010-06-15T10:37:00.000-07:00

Yes, HOLIDAY x 2weeks.
But then week 11 is officially our exams & I'm so not into the mood of study.

Mummy, I'm gaining another 1.8kg in 3 days time - I seriously wonder why so fast.
I'm now , 52kg. LOOK AT IT, oh gosh. I need to exercise more, really! Charis made me run 2.4km yesterday & I told myself never stop down or I will be in massive pain , AND I MADE IT but still, I failed. heehee. And now, I'm full of muscle aches and I'm going crazy having problems to walk down stairs & of course, BUS!!!!!

I've got no idea why I post boring updates now.
I think I'm just purely bored.

2010-06-09T07:59:00.001-07:00

ONEW'S CONDITION?
No, its Jonghyun's time!
I can't stop smiling at my screen. He is soooo lovedddd:D

1. Stylist forgotten to get the clips off & dear Jonghyun didnt realise.

2. Why is he so tall?

3. Oh man, I broke my necklace!

4. I would like to know what exactly Jonghyun was thinking at this time.

5. HEHEHE? :D

6. What are you doing, Jonghyun?

2010-06-06T09:47:00.000-07:00

I LOVE SHINEEEE :D
I think I'm already MAD. If you have been a constant reader to my nonsense blog, you can see that I attended OMY concert without knowing who exactly are they, then I'm not a huge fan but enjoy watching their performance, to their OMG, I'm in love with them!

I have to apologize to 10 over people who got infected by me, with SHINee Virus. I'm so sorry. I told you guys already, they are infectious - isnt it? If you think that they are just idols without abilities, you are definitely wrong~ They can sing, they dont lipsync. They can even dance at the same time without affecting their vocal, thats why they caught my attention! I'm here apologising bec Soh Li Xuan Charis is cursing me :D

To Afifah, Buvan, Charis [I just realised ABC.]
I decided to change my plan. If I see them in Korea, I need CPR too. HAHAHAHA. Afifah, you just continue to faint & wait for onew. For me, I just hope I will hide somewhere or get gobbled up by the ground when I faint.

KimJonghyun, omgomg, stop making me drool.
Taemin is running up now :D
Onew is almost there, hurry!
Minho, my dear boy, you have been stuck behind so long, HURRY!
Key, yes you hottie, idk what to say to you, but I still love you.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA

If they are coming to Singapore for fansigning with only 1000fans, I will not go. Not bec I am not crazy, its just bec there are more crazier fans than me. And the malls are going to be flooded with more than 2000 people. I think I will die.

2010-06-03T07:09:00.001-07:00

SORRY. I have many weird habits.

My friends have been saying that I'm the weirdest person ever on earth as I have so many funny weird habits that they could not understand at all. IDIOTS.

1. I dont breathe in lifts or enclosed area bec I hate people polluting air in enclosed area.
2. I do not share drinks, food with others. I dont like saliva, its disgusting, dirty.
3. I dont like people to yawn, burp near me or even right at my back - Seriously, manners please.
4. I can never open my bowel if there's people around me within 3metres - It's disgusting to hear those water bombing sounds, isnt it?
5. I hate to sit at the tail of the train or seats, bec everybody breath will be whipping my face & I' totally hate to smell people breath - I feel like vomiting.
6. I get super angry and like to tick off assholes who refused to give up the reserved seats when needy people boarded the train.
7. No Chocolates, No bananas, No flatnuts, No sashimi, No Squid, No octopus - my way of surviving.
8. I hate the Sun - I just need a SPF250 sun lotion, thanks.

- I will definitely update these things up when I can recall more. HEHE.

2010-05-24T08:11:00.000-07:00

RAIN WAS SO HOT WITH HIP SONG :D
OMGOMG, AND SHINEE WAS MAKING ME DIZZY.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
THESE GUYS WERE WAY TOO HOT IN DREAM CONCERT :D

School today was bad, I felt the unfairness.
I know its wrong for us to be late today.
But we were just 2 minutes late, while some other people were still marked as present without warning even when they whacked 26minutes record.

That's why, I hate school.
Pretty ladies always get the best treatment.
This shows how realistic the world is, while the teachers are still happily educating students with fairness during moral education.

2010-05-21T12:24:00.000-07:00

SHOULD I CRY OR LAUGH?

Attended jap lesson this evening and went to iluma for some shopping after that. Bought 2 watches which is really cheap and nice. So there was this small booth where the salesman are trying to attract people with their bridal wedding shots, or some family photography in TAIWAN. So I was with Julia's sister, & she was interested in the promo & I was kind of embarrassed to stand at the booth bec its BRIDAL SHOT. To me, its NOT normal to stand somewhere near any wedding stuff. hehes, dont ask me why, but that was it! Anyway, everyone in the booth was from taiwan & I could see that they are more towards some yuan-zhu-ming people.

So I was looking around & swaying here here, there there. Then I managed to see a salesman, roughly 30, who was looking at me with a serious shock. I didnt give much attention of the shock bec he was working at the booth too and I thought he thinks I was staring at him - its like , who cares. Then Julia sis was listening about the promo from another salesman & we are all standing up. So the 'shocked' salesman gave me a smile as he walked towards us then offer us to sit down while negotiating. He asked me the relationship with julia's sister, and I didnt think much to the qns and replied she's my friend.

GUESS WHAT? This man smiled and said in chinese, "YOU LOOKED VERY LIKE MY WIFE. I WAS SO SHOCKED WHEN I SAW YOU."

Immediate response in my mind floated with an EXCLAMATION MARK! And after about 3 seconds, I gave a weird omg laughter & felt like bashing him up. I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD CRY OR BE HAPPY.

Cry because I LOOK OLD or because her wife too YOUNG? OR should I be happy bec that person with MY FACE found their happiness? Means my look not so hopeless right? OMGOMG. I LOOK LIKE SOMEONE'S WIFE!!!!!! I cant even imagine myself married, I am also being embarrassed to stand anywhere near bridal related stuff, so how could it possibly that I'm someone's wife?!!!! Okay, stop the exclamation marks now. I should just say that this man must have done something unfaithful to his wife, if not he wouldnt be so shocked when he saw first saw me. He must have thought that his wife had flown over from taiwan to sg. HAHAHHAA.

SEE? Guys shouldnt never play a fool outside! HAHAHAHA, or you will never be able to live with regular heartbeat.

Charis! I told you that I KNOW how it feels to be said look alike, but why in the world did it happen on the similar day when I told you that I know?!!!

2010-05-18T19:59:00.003-07:00

ON THE VERGE OF KILLING MIKE GOH.

2010-05-18T19:59:00.001-07:00

ON THE VERGE OF KILLING MIKE GOH.

2010-05-18T05:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, school as usual but I learnt something via an incident. One of my lecture groupmate had passed on. When the news was announced, the whole lecture hall went total silent. We are just so shocked. He's smart, and was supposedly to go for clinical attachment in Germany.. Just then, I remembered what Kaypeng tried to debate about life, to regret that you didnt do or be relieved that you have done. Yes, life is damn short & time to think about my life. OMG, I SOUND SO OLD NOW. And yes, Charis did something on Sunday, and I think I salute her for the rest of my life. She was so braveeeeee to fight for something she wants. Salute, Salute. Last but not last, condolence to the family too.

Today's E-learning day & I have got the best long sleeping hours. My alarm rang at 11.20am & I woke up to watch my DreamTeam till 12.35pm. It's really niceeeee. You just cant stop being amazed and clapping away yelling wooooohooo. (: After the show, I went back to sleep and woke up at 7.20pm. (: Shiok, and time to do homework now.

2010-05-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

I AM SORRY THAT I HAVE SCARED MANY PEOPLE BECAUSE OF MY PUT-ON WEIGHTS. HAHAHA. I AM HEREBY MAKING AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO SHED OF 2 KG IN THIS MONTH, BACK TO 48KG.

Went out with Kaypeng today & ate my favourite Cuishinbo :D
He's nice enough to only smile when I exclaimed I'm gaining too much weight.
I know what the courteous smile meant. HAHAHA.

I AM GOING FOR JOGGGGGG.
BUT NO ONE WANTS TO ACCOMPANY ME :(
I'm desperate for nicer clothings.
And no, I'm not anorexic.

2010-05-12T07:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry, but one fine day, I will hack ZhaoYongQiang.

This idiot made me boiled today, and I'm almost cooked.
Filthy disgusting fellow with no right mind, full of dirty thinkings & doings.
I know some people just cant stand the "loneliness" in Singapore & then tried to 'shock' girls as if they were reviving some dying patients.

I know its shameless to blog this down bec if I say these, people would most likely to ask me take a look at myself at the mirror as i'm not pretty , no one would try to be seductive to me.
But hello!!!! The class knows that this desperate china guy is totally lecher. I disliked the way he looks at every girls, including myself. Whenever he gave me that stare, I felt disgusted & feels like I'm being seen through, totally naked. This is no exaggeration to the matter.

So today, I wasnt feeling well bec I have sore throat, mild cough & heavy flu. If I'm in an extreme awesome condition, this guy might have been admitted into the hospital. This bastard was in my subgroup, fine. During the lesson, there was this group discussion where group members have to turn their chairs around. So I was putting one leg over another, and I have never wanted to put it down for anyone's convenience before. That's me, Joey. And this bastard, gave me a disgusting seductive smile with a smirk at the side tip of his mouth, and he looked at my leg like it have given his some wonderful thoughts in his filthy wonderland. And do you know about the strokes that girls used to stroke guys ankle when they are deeeeeply in love ? YES, FUCK YOU. He did that to me & I retracted my feets off. If it wasnt in the middle of the lesson, and I am in good condition, FUCK YOU. OFF TO HELL, YOU BLOODY BASTARD. I will even feel sad for those prostitutes that have gone to bed with you if there is any.

I will not apologize for these uncivilized wording in these post, I will NEVER.
You do it again , and you will be sorry while I'm not.
I meant what I said, bastard.

2010-05-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

I WANT GO BALI LAHHH.
JETSTAR IS HAVING 1 FOR 1 PROMOTION.
SO ITS LIKE S$88 LEHS.

CHARIS WANT TO GO - I"M HAPPY. (:
BUT NO ONE ELSE GOING COS MUSLIMS HAVING FASTING.
MARSIE, BUVAN, AFIFAH - BROKE MY HEART.

If I go with Charis, doesnt that mean that we are placing ourselves at risk bec we are ladies?

2010-04-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

I cant help it but to trigger the gun off with blasting fire at my blog now.
I dont wish to name whom, I dont wish to name who.

I just want to apologize in advance for my ill-bred manners and my un-nice languages here.

I seriously understand what the hell FYP means, and I know the whole entire stupid bloody idiot class is very competitive for this FYP. The competitive matter have always been ongoing since YEAR ONE. Yes, of course we have to take everything seriously. But what is the unfairness that you bloody idiots are talking about?

I just want to bloody hell voice out that there is total absence of lecturer helping us to get through our so called FYP. You cant say that the lecturer was being biased bec she didnt give us any suggestion at all. So suckers, kindly shut up with your nonsenses. Find evidence if you could as you will never find one. Even if you do, that's definitely hilariously cooked up stories.

Just last week, we were the LAST group that the lecturer approached for FYP discussion. She went around and asking what each group are intending to do, and from the lecturer's golden mouth, she said that the other 3 groups are intending to do innovation, so what are we choosing. SO, we replied that we have no much innovation ideas at the time being but we will keep all categories open for discussion including services talks if we cant think of any. Thus, the lecturer said that she will KIV us for any NUH proposals but no assurance. Hence, today she approached us again as the 1st group as we requested that we didnt want to be the last group to go home late AGAIN. So she gave us a topic only but bec her materials are raw so she had to go and photocopy for us. Yes, she took pretty long to get photocopies done. IS THAT OUR FAULT TOO? What's the necessary commotions about?

At the same time of discussion, we realised that alot of commotions were going about in the room with full of tension. Stop staring at us, please. Heard comments saying the lecturer must be helping us in secret, unfairness, and what she spent alot of time with us and this and that and this and that. If you said that she was spending too much time to discuss with us TODAY inclusive of the photocopying period, then fine - we shall claim the timing too. But think about last week, we were the last group to discuss and took less than 5minutes and we overshot the class timing. So you guys still want to continue being calculative with the timing?

Oh come on, time to grow up boys and girls.
THAT'S BEC YOU GUYS CHOSE INNOVATION. AND STOP BEING IDIOTIC TO SAY THE TEACHER DIDNT EVEN SUGGEST TO YOU BEC YOU GUYS ALREADY TOLD HER THAT YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING ELSE. WHY SO SELFISH?

I'm totally horrified with this class with the forever total disagreements and the backstabbing of one another. HELLO! Forever there are disputes over the mountains of ICAs, SDLs, Grouping things. People with lots of unhappiness and disagreements will forever shut their bloody mouth.

Come on, humans. Where are all the awesome psychology applications that we have learnt for the past 2 years? You guys definitely passed the 2 years' module, am I not right?
We are gonna be nurses, and not handling some political issues. If we continue with this kind of attitude in nursing, we are NOT fit to be nurses.
I really mean it. It doesnt mean that you have higher GPA means your pay will be higher once you get hired because Nurses Starting Pay is STANDARD. It also doesnt mean that you will be the WARD SISTER straight away if you get GPA 4.

Score a honorable GPA 4 with that kind of attitude? (:
I would just advise you to tear your certificate away.

2010-04-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

I can't stop my laughters & I found myself way too irritating in my living room.
PABOOOO. Okay. I have too many things to complete in these 3weeks time.

Week 4 ICA and we havent gathered info yet - its week 2, fyi :D
Tomorrow - Meeting.
Thursday - Tennis.
Saturday - Revise my Jap.
Sunday - Jap lesson.
* Means I only LEFT friday to rest!

2010-04-26T10:38:00.000-07:00

Alright, RESEARCH AFTER THIS POST! (:

Charis made a good start of my school day by giving me an awesome video to watch and I cried. Just as I finished crying after 30min, Miss Janet Chua gave us another video to watch. And AHHH, I started flooding again.

I cant stop laughing when I see baby yoogeun snorting at shinee.
HAHAHAHAA. This totally keeps me away from depression.
Minho tried to act in angry tone, and ended up in loser state of "Yoogeun, please."
See, you guys spoilt yoogeun!

2010-04-25T00:21:00.000-07:00

I hate to admit but I think I'm mad over Shinee.
HAHAHA. So contradicting. First time that I like a group as in everyone.
Their voice is powderful mannnnn & they can danceeeeee. muahahhahaa.
I neglected my Rain. I'm sorry darling.

LOOK AT THIS! (:
I didnt know Just Dance boy version that I always hear from net was by them.
MINHOOOOOOOO! He's in white, fyi.
Alright, I know Key[wearing black] looks nicer here.
But omg, I didnt know minho was soooo damn hotter than I could ever imagine.
HAHAHAHHAAAAAAA.

This is the full official KBS portion.
And its the first time I see jonghyun being at the back rather than in the middle.

2010-04-15T11:13:00.000-07:00

THIS IS HILARIOUS.
This is mad. HAHAHHAA!
Shinee's Fans are so good at doing this. They made it go along with teletubies actions. MUAHAHAHAHA. I'm not a fan of theirs, but they are really making my day. Hello baby series made me laugh like crazy. I cant imagine if youtube doesnt work when I'm damn bored.

2010-04-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

I FIND THE RED SHIRT MAN CHARMING.

I seriously find Michael Miu handsome & charming.
HAHAHAHAHA. Yeah, I just cant stop watching those hongkong drama that this guy acted in. Bad guy or police, he can act both very well. YAYA, he is even older than my dad. Michael Miu is 52 this year, ohmygoat, does he look like he's in 50s? Keep your answers to yourself. HAHAHA.

I think I lacked of love from my dad. Time to tell him so, before I really marry a old bald man. HAHAHA. That's because I really find mature man more charming compared to those youngsters that are pathetically childish. HAHAHAHHAHA. My dad's gonna chop off my head if he turns on my comp & read this. He is such an old-fashion man who thinks he still lives in the 80s. He said he will forbid me marrying to other races or other nationality man. He's definitely not racist but he's just being too old fashion where traditions should be taken off. HOHO. My dad should learn from hilda's dad by wearing smart modern clothing rather than kopitiam uncle clothings. He doesnt listen & I was like... 'Idiot, excuse me, you are still young yet you want to wear......' Alamak, saya tak tauhu lahhh.

WE SHALL SEE, DAD.

2010-04-11T06:35:00.000-07:00

MY BRAIN GONNA EXPLODE!

I'm having a dull throbbing headache, as if it gonna explode anytime.
Experiencing pre-menstrual cramp since the last time I have my menstrual was.....HAAAA.
Decided not to sleep because I could feel that my head is spinning when my eyes are closed.
Rotted in my living room. Changed channels to channels, nothing interest me.
Flipped, Flopped, and.. YAY!
Channel 70, home discovery & caught human stories - new season.
So I was watching the operation that was not censored at all.
The op was on the ulna & oesophagus - fabulous.
And yes, I'm just totally a sicko who just like to see these kind of things.
That's why, let me pray that I can get enrolled into OT after grad :)

2010-04-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

Headacheeee. HAHAHAHA.
Because I dont know what I could do with my hair.

No rebonding please, though my hair is forever frizzy&messy.
I just cant stand rebonded hair to stick onto my big-surface-area-high-forehead.
And I have a longgggg face, so that means short hair is only making my face even longer.
I need to get a fringe(whatever it was spelt as)! But my growing fringe is always towards right.
And I have a bad in-he-ri-ted widows peak from my dad. Yes, this is irking me.

I wanted a bold cut like lady GaGa's pokerface mv that real straight hair.
But my mum said I did something similar to my hair earlier on with straight bangs and straight ends. Just that I cant dye my hair to that color extend, cos its totally no-no for nursing. Aww, that's sad.

Caught up.

2010-04-03T10:20:00.000-07:00

YEAH!
WEIWEN WILL BE BOOKING NEXT SATURDAY'S COURT :D
CRYSTALINE KOOOOO, LET"S BUY A DOZEN OF BALLS THEN.

Best sweat - ever.

2010-04-01T02:40:00.000-07:00

KINDLY TAKE OFF RIS LOW FROM 987 FM.

EEW. Ris Low had this 1 year contract with 987 FM.
I'm going to switch station! How can this bimbo work in 987 FM?

HELLO. IT'S AN ENGLISH STATION.

She cant even speak proper english! I thought I entered into an alien world.

Being late for 2 hours & said she saw 1600hr as 6pm.

Is 987FM thinking that by having her, means there will be more listeners tuning in?

That's a big bet & they have placed it WRONG.

Many tuned OUT.
Those listening are just waiting for JOKES.

I think she should get an english tutor, probably some moral education tutors too.

Its not that we are not giving ''yellow ribbon" a 2nd chance.

BUT, her presence being in 987FM brought Singapore's English down to another level of hell. Probably the MOE that is encouraging Singaporeans to speak proper english could get her off.

Stop that lousy-english virus spreaded via radio!

2010-03-29T10:52:00.001-07:00

Rain's NEW album will be out on 1st April 2010! :D

But sad to say, I'm not getting it.

Because I know it will be priced at least $20.90 onwards.

I'm currently broked because..

I just paid for my japanese lesson sem2 sch fee.

I'm just back from Taiwan trip.

Its already the end of the month too.

I need to make use of this holiday to the fullest, I mean it.

Jap Lesson - every Sunday & exam is coming ;(

And I HAVE A COMPO TO WRITE which I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HIT 450 Words.

Tennis - every thursday with my sweetheart :D

I'm finding short-term classes to improve my bloody english.

I'm really starting to irk all the 'la, leh, luh, lor'.

I am very angry with SSDCL. I cant do payment for the booking of ftt.

I've been dragging for 1 year after i passed my btt because I really hate the long waiting Q at the center there itself. >:[

2010-03-27T05:27:00.000-07:00

Holiday Trip To Taiwan!

Many thanks to the sponsorship for my air flight :D

Taiwan Trip x 7D6N (:
HOHOHO!

Breakfast at Changi Airport's Crystal Jade.

The food was just so-so but it did cost a bomb.

Yeah, this is always my favourite part of the whole journey.

You can just see the landmarks, so clearly.

Anyway, the seats in the aeroplane were quite crampy.

Welcome to Taiwan :D
I'm definitely not a fan of theirs, but Charis is.

Headed to Ximending, and got this tall-icecream that only cost 25 NTD, which is about S$1.10.

Here comes our first destination - Modern Toilet Restaurant :D
Everything is toilet theme, and it actually digusted us when we first thought it wont.

The food was moderate, but the portion worth the amount that we paid.

2 super big set meal at 505NTD, which is S$22 :O

Ahhhh!
Hello Kitty Sanrio Cafe! (:
The best meal in taiwan.
Spent for 2 meals: 1045 NTD [S$47.50]

Went for a stroll near Taipei 101 & we found something to play with.

Taipei 101 was boring, and we just took 30min to finish walking whole building.
Nothing special, not as awesome as what tv always described.
So, we just head towards Danshui for hotspring which we initially took it off from our itinerary.
My mum tried to pose some funny shots but well, I will not post that up cos I'm afraid that readers might just slam their laptops onto the ground. HOHO.

Anyway, those intending to go for hotspring..
Just to let you know, it just smell like long-gang water.
Stink till... and it also smells like metal. OMG.
But I like the temperature of the hotspring water - 53 degree celsius :D

Supper at A380 Cafe :D
TIRAMISU & A POT OF ROSE TEA :D
But its pretty expensive to pay 253 NTD [S$11.50] for just 2 small shares.

YES. We managed to visit Jay Chou's restaurant - Mr J / Mr Qute.
His restaurant has a funny eew smell that came from the kitchen.
However, the quality of the food was good.

The baked lobster was marvellous, and my lobster spaghetti was awesome too.
The payable amount is about 1200 NTD [S$54]
Sounds expensive but if its for lobster wise, it is quite worth it.
Hehe, talk like as if I am a millionaire.

TADANG! :D
Taiwan is not really a shopping heaven.

But its really food delight country :D

And I'm putting on weight, again.

2010-03-14T10:19:00.000-07:00

Attended OMY SGEAWARDS 2010 :D

Shinee heated up the whole award session.
I think it would be even hotter if Super Junior was there.
But Shinee do not look friendly somehow, hehes.
But I cant help screaming , even though I'm not a fan of theirs.

I told my mum to scream too but she refused initially.

She said she was too old for that but after sometime psycho-ing her, she screamed like a mad woman. HAHAHA. Told her to relieve her stress here and not home. HAHAHAHAAAA.

I like Eason & A-Du performance, like hearing from CD.
Powerful voice and quite entertaining.

The evening definitely made my S$10 entrance ticket worth it. (:

2010-03-07T05:22:00.001-08:00

Have you read about Jack Neo's Hideous Affairs?
No? I think you should.

My impression of him was that old-liang-popo, that has made me laughed wholeheartedly every monday when I was still young. And I thought he was a good husband as he always claimed to love his only wife in the past star award session. If I'm not wrong, that was when his wife just given birth or about to give birth to the youngest kid. That kid now is 7, and the eldest is 19.

That model is currently 22 !
What the heck is this! I know its none of my business but it somehow boils me off.
The wife actually accepted the fact? WHAT THE HELL IS THAT.
I'm gonna kill my husband if I get to know about it at once, I'll make sure I will chop his head off first before I go to jail. If sway, they divorced then those kid have to call her what? SISTER or STEPMUM? This is totally hideous. Ugly news that hell stunned me. Yucks, chenjianbin affairs exposed was just less than 6months ago, and here comes our used-to-be-proud-to-be-known director being exposed.

I'm not gonna carry on.
These articles nauseated me.

2010-03-04T09:50:00.000-08:00

I cant stand the new doctor. I know I'm just a student nurse & shouldnt talk so much.

But I cant help it when a doctor yells at a patient when their days have already reached a limit. Sometimes I just hope I could go forward to the doctor and give them a tight slap.

I mean.. YOU ARE JUST A NEW DOCTOR x 2months!

And so soon, you forgotten what a doctor means.

It just shown that you are not fit to become a doctor after 5 years of studies, BASTARD.

Please kindly recall the reason why you pick up medical course again.

2010-03-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

I'm about to kill that hongkong doctor.
She is so-not-gentle during bone marrow aspiration.
My heart ached for the pt, seriously.

I'm located at the leukemia wards, and basically I'm kind of emotionally affected with any happenings. Some of them are putting on strong will to live and get well, while some sank down and hit stones by giving up the will to live.

Sometimes, when something struck you...
What will you choose to be...?

2010-02-27T07:00:00.000-08:00

YAY, EXAMS FINISHED AFTER 5 CONTINOUS PAPERS :D

Have a small chat with Aaron Lim bec he started asking quite alot of qns on some nurses in sgh. Yeayeah, he was gossiping, not me ! He hadnt change the way he craps. HAHA. And he started his crazy talk about this and that. IDIOT, HAHAHAHAA!

Oh man, I realized I like to laugh and smile when I'm msn-ing.

Then my sisters will stare at me and say I'm mad.

Went to makan Laksa at central for lunch, damn nice but the Q is forever that long. Hmmm.

Just as usual, bumped onto Renzhong and crapped some stuff.

And that let me recalled how much I hate it when my form-teacher wanted us to hold hands.

Yeayeah, that was primary ONE and this kido was always picking his nose!

YES, RENZHONG - THATS YOU! (:

Msn-ed to catch up with some friends, since I'm free for like 2hours.

Then I was msn-ing jontoh, since aaron lim commented something that day that really puzzled me. Then I cant remember our topic just shifted from noth to south illogically, and we talked some stuff till I was laughing like a mad-ass. yeayeah really mad, this guy cant be judged just by his cover. He must be too stressed over his exams.

Arghhh, I received an sms from the lecturer ;(

It said that I will be transferred over to Ward77 to work instead of Ward54 :(

Well, just pray that many people will be there.

ATTACHMENT STARTS IN 1 DAY AND 29 MIN FROM NOW :)

2010-02-22T22:11:00.001-08:00

I HOPED I DID NOT FLUNK TODAY'S PAPER.

I KNOW I TOTALLY DESERVE IT FOR NOT STUDYING ANOTHER HALF OF THE MODULE.

OKAY, TOMORROW IS THE PAPER THAT I AM LOOKING FORWARD - PHARMACOLOGY.

YES, ALL ABOUT DRUGS - MY LOVE.

I'm a total drug abuser.

HAHAHAHAHHAA.

JUST LET ME RELAX FOR 2MINUTE BEFORE I GET STARTED. (:

2010-02-19T08:36:00.000-08:00

I'm so dehydrated now. I am so proud of myself today!

1. I utilized all the papers given during exam. Never look down on my crapping skills;)

2. I ate dim sum today. And at pastamania, i hv abit gastric feeling alr. But didnt care at all, continued my revision..
Then i go home, stepped into the toilet and started vomiting into toilet bowl. Stopped, and started coughing, gasping for air. Smell the vomitus, tak boleh tahan the smell. Disgusted by it, and resumed vomiting.

Good luck :(

2010-02-14T09:41:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR,

PULL YOUR EAR ! (:

First thing on my mind: this morning - YES, ANGBOWS PLS! (:
Second thing on my mind: on my way - OH MAN, I CANT WAIT FOR THE SNACKS!
Third thing on my mind: after I have reached - ANYONE WANTS TO GAMBLE?!

Yeah, this is how I spent my day. The last thing on my mind was to continue mugging.
So many relatives were not present, so I couldnt get more angbows, therefore no much angbows :D
I have a way to deal with the money collected (:

Both my dad & my mum sides are like gambling den, so no exceptions for our generation.
Didnt win much, but at least I won 1 day's pocket money (:

- Just when I reached my granduncle house, I thought of my grandmother.
How I wished she was there to kajiao me.. Seriously missed her, badly.

2010-02-13T00:27:00.000-08:00

I was browsing the web this afternoon, thinking of donating some money or some items that I am not using. I have tons of stationarys, storybooks and brand new clothes that I cant even fit in. Then I thought of orphanage, and I went googling.

I was searching for SINGAPORE orphanage, bec I believe these kids are the ones that need to be exposed to the outside world. You must be thinking why I'm not donating it to the homes for disabled or elderlys. Well, I'm just thinking that there are more people who are helping out as volunteers in needy homes than orphanage. And I believe that my stuff would be more beneficial to kids if I'm donating.

Yeahyeah, kids to me are monsters - BUVAN, I KNOW.
But still, we need to let them know that they are not stigmatized by our society.
Alright, I'm not very sure to what I'm talking about now.
What's my main point? HAHA. FORGOTTEN ALR.

I went searching, but I realised that this holy Singapore.. made me feel disgusted.
I mean, seriously. They are only reaching hands for the overseas orphanage rather than Singapore. Dont believe me? Try googling. Aw, so disappointed - really.

Some pages you clicked, its full of rubbish.
If not, it ask you to donate monthly or quarterly to OTHER COUNTRIES orphanage.
I'm not being selfish or prejudice towards other nations, I swear.
But before you reach out for other nations, why not think about your own nation's problem?
Some website, worst.
You clicked, they tell you its for orphanage in pasir ris and so so so.
Then you click under some HELP OUT IN ORPHANAGE navigation.
Then you happily read the whole entire page. Right at the bottom, there's this EXTREMELY SMALL LITTLE 'HERE' FOR MORE INFO ON THE FUNDS RAISED. And, I clicked!
It shows something like, donate monthly 10% of your salary.
What Lord, what Catholic Church, Goals, Built church, We aim to fund $100 K to built church .
I WAS LIKE, HEY FUCK IT. I THOUGHT WAS DONATIONS FOR ORPHANAGE?
YAYA, I'M SUPER ANGRY WHEN THESE SHIT MISLED PEOPLE DONATING.
Its been such a long time since I spelt the uncivilized word.

If you find these offensive, I'm sorry but to apologise.
I am just being extremely careful to the funds that I am donating for.
I seriously couldnt trust those shit TV charities because of the previous few scamming incidents.

Stop these topic.
So now, where can I donate my stuff & money?
Stuff is definitely for orphanage - who can provide me address?
Money...?
NO MACS [THEY ARE RICH ENOUGH TO HELP KKH], NOT FOR CHURCHES&TEMPLES [BEC IT DEFEATS MY PURPOSE OF DONATING TO THE NEEDYS ONE].
NOT FOR GOVT HOSPITAL, BEC I KNOW THERE'S SOMETHING CALL MEDIFUND FOR THE POORS AND MEDISAVE SUBSIDY.
NOT FOR RICH ORGANISATION HOMES.
I JUST WANT TO HELP THE REALLY NEEDY ONES.

2010-02-09T03:56:00.000-08:00

I can never resist or reject a date to Kuishinbo :D

My favorite SNOW CRAB :D

Went with Leeming&Weiwen!

Entered Weiwen's office..

it goes like... WOW....

HAHAHA. BYEEEEE ;)

2010-02-06T09:33:00.001-08:00

FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS,
I WILL BE HELLLL BUSY STUDYING AND REVISING FOR THE SAKE OF MY LOUSY GPA.
I DONT AIM TO SHOOT HIGH GPA, BUT JUST LET ME MAINTAIN... (:

Tomorrow - jap lesson. :( kind of not looking forward anymore ;(
Monday - SBL :( means Sunday have to revise.
Tuesday - powerpoint presentation x 2 [means monday got proj meeting]
Wednesday - No school, but I'll be back to school to have the mask fitting session :(
Then study study study! MEANS, I"M OFF DEAD!

HAIYO ! Then exam on 19, 22,23,24,25 Feb.
Then rest.. 26 , 27, 28 :( FYI, FEB ONLY HAS 28 DAYS :(
1st MARCH - ATTACHMENT x 3 weeks. [lucky its only 3 weeks this time :D ]

Means, 22 March then I'm officially FREE to do my things. :)
22 march lehs... Now only 6 Feb... ARGHHHH.

Anyway, went for Regina Chalet party :D
The food there is totally awesome...
They got my... FAVORITE SATAY :DDDDDDDDD
They got my... STRAWBERRIES :DDDDDDD
They got my... KIWI DRINK :DDDDDD

I was happily enjoying my food and watching the idol drama on Channel U.
And everyone started asking me, why am I so quiet today :D
For why must I be noisy when I am enjoying my food? :D
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
TAKESHI IS DAMN CUTE LEHS :D
Photos later upload luhs. see my mood first :D

FOOD! Arghh, its a habit now that I couldnt control my diet anymore.
I think I'm gonna be a fatass or something SOON :D
In Sec 4 - 42 KG.
In Yr 1 - 50 KG.
In yr 2 - 48 KG.

Aww man. I dont need my genes from my dad to become fat.
I'm just solely having my desserts.

And and, there is this guy going around yishun to stab people.
I heard that there were already 3 victims since the first one happened on wednesday.
He stabbed & disfigured them. OHMYGOD.
Its at YISHUN AVE 9 , AND ITS DAMN SCARY.
MY HEART WAS PUMPING SO FAST ON MY WAY VIA THE STAIRCASE.
I DONT WANT TO DIE SO EARLY.
I STILL GOT MANY THINGS I WANNA DO WHICH I HAVENT HAD THE CHANCE TO START DOING.

God, Buddha, MercyGoddess, can you make these scary people disappear?

2010-02-05T08:04:00.000-08:00

Okay, I was busy looking for someething in Orchard today.

Browsed so many branded shops till I got hooked by LV.

UH, CHAM LIAO. (: HAHAHA, its okay actually.

It doesnt matter, bec..

I DONT EVEN HV THAT MONEY TO BUY THE CHEAPEST THING IN THAT SHOP! :D

Its okay, its okay - I'm telling myself.

I'll get one when I start working officially.

Pamper myself more, since I'm stepping into e society next year .

I pity girls like me... Bec we are only 20..

We are not legally 21 and not approved to watch R21 movies.

At even the age of 17, we have already started to see & touch something that we havent get to see it in R21 movies.

So, dear govt, how do you explain these?

It doesnt make sense that implied to the public ;(

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

NURSES ARE HORNY, YOU CANT DENY.

BUVAN IS THE HORNIEST.

EXAM IN 14 DAYS EXACTLY.

I HAVE YET TO REVISE. SALUTE!

2010-02-03T08:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEEMING!

Finally, you are nineTEEN. (:

I'm no longer that lonely X)

2010-01-29T10:24:00.000-08:00

Today is a bad day. A bad day is a bad day that I couldnt define what exactly a bad day is. A bad day is a day to describe how bad your day is, therefore you called it a bad day.

Woke up and prepared myself to school, intentionally to revise ONLY since I havent even started to even flip a single page of any lecture books. I'm not trying to be kiasu bec I know I am not one. All I know is all my exam schedule is cramped up on 19, 22, 23, 24, 25 Feb.
And next week, I am tied up with projects presentation! But of course, back to the main point. I didnt get the chance to flip any book.

I reached Yishun MRT and ran for the train.
I'm damn mad and crazy over 2 stupid Filipino that was blocking the damn escalator!
I was like,
- err, excuse me. [politely but the person obviously ignored me.]
- Excuse ME. [I stared at her friend but she cant be bothered]
- OI, EXCUSE ME LAH! [then her friend siam one side.]
I used all my might to catch that f. train but I missed it!

WHAT REALLY MAKE ME
BOILED & STEAMED & COOKED & TOASTED WAS:

I HAVE TO WAIT FOR A HELL 10 MIN TRAIN.
AND THAT IDIOT WOMAN STARED AT ME.
I HACK CARE & STARED BACK AT HER DAGGEREDLY.
STUPID HELL. DONT YOU KNOW THAT YOU DONT OWN THE WHOLE F YISHUN MRT?
DONT YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD HELL STAND ON YOUR HOLY LEFT.
DONT YOU KNOW 10 MINUTES IS HELL LONG?
YOU ARE DAMN INCONSIDERATE & DUMB FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING 'EXCUSE ME'.
Scold me uncivilised if you want to do so.

Went to the library research carrier since I booked from 2pm.
Reached at 2.30pm, so of course inside got people.
I dont really mind, but I just stood outside to wait.
But, these 3 ignorant kids acted like they didnt see me.
I decided to knock gently and inform them that I have booked the room.
Me: 'Hi, I'm sorry. I guessed I have booked this room.' [I"M SMILING OKAY!]
They look at me and said 'okay, we'll pack now.'
They horrendously took their own sweet time to pack that 2 laptop!
So they left the room and I said thank you! (:
Guess what one of them said, 'we dont know bec u are not on time. you cant blame us at all'.
AND SHE ROLLED HER EYES!
I DIDNT EVEN SPROUT A SINGLE WORD OF TRIGGER, IDIOT.
USE MY ROOM SO LONG STILL SO ARROGANT.
DIG UR EYES OUT AH.

So I started reading through the slides and start to write my scripts. ;O
brought in so many editions of drug guide but all useless.
So 5pm, finally most of them reached.
And we ended at 10.15pm, which I feel like slapping my mouth for the 10min request :O
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

I AM SO HUNGRY & DOING MY PROJ NOW :(
My sec friend is absolutely crazy and schizophrenic now bec he claimed himself GOD.
He is soooo high that I thought he was on drugs or being possessed.
Horrifying Chinese but Wonderful Hokkien.

ANWAY, LAST PARAGRAPH HERE.
I AM VERY SAD AND PARANOID NOW BEC OWJIAWEN FOUND MY BLOG.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. STOP STALKING ME :)
!!!!!!!OW JIA WEN!!!!!

2010-01-28T10:17:00.000-08:00

RECRUITING RECRUITING! (:

RECRUITING FOR SOME EARS SO I COULD SCREAM INTO AND BE HEARD!

2010-01-26T07:31:00.000-08:00

I am very angry.
Why dont you understand whats important
and what that is obviously not important at all.
Just when you start t grumble that i am not understanding enough,
should you reflect urself?

I didnt write your name BIG bec i believe u can change.
Just when u think i am able to help u doesnt mean everytime.
Just how irritating the calls are!
Everyone is busy looking for you via my phone.
I'm your friend. But that doesnt mean i have u comply to you!
Just bec of you, i hv t OFF my phone till 7pm.
I shall cross my fingers that u'll be feeling at least that slightlest sense of GUILT & SHAME.

U should know wad sort of person I am.
I can be very nice, very bitchy like a hen and also like mentally sick person.
Dont push ur luck too far.
We hv been helping u, fyi.
If u think u dont need our help, then just shut me up.
But I swear, we wont clean up ur mess.
Dont say that i did not tell u.

When I- JOEY, tell u that its urgent, it really means URGENT.
If its not even an emergency, i would NOT even bother t call u.
An sms will do, the rest - up t u t decide.
I wont collect ur corpse.

2010-01-25T08:40:00.000-08:00

Finally - managed to meet up :D

HAHAHA. This is like soooo amazing.

It's been really longggg time since we get our butt somewhere further for shopping ;S

HHAHAHAHAA

We went fareast :D

I got myself superskinny jeans, and a top - which I was considering for a very long time.

And guess what, we really eat alot of food that day.

But but, we only spent about 12bucks each in total.

That is soooo cool ehs - we even went marche!

Okay. Now - time for - しゅくだい :(

2010-01-22T04:26:00.000-08:00

BYE BYE ATTACHMENTS :D

you always ached my feet,

kill my sleep,

waste my fares.

2010-01-22T04:17:00.000-08:00

PROJECTS MAKE US CRAZY!!!

OKAY, WE ARE CRAZY!

2010-01-18T04:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday attended Jap Lesson. Finally it starts again. As the teacher goes by, I realised what I've been taught have been returned back to Yamano Sensei. HAHAHA. I COULDNT CATCH WHAT THE NEW TEACHER WAS TALKING :D but she was pretty funny and made the class interesting ;O

Anyway, there was one session that asked, what do you want the most now. Guessed what! I'm so surprised that many actually admitted that they want a boyfriend! I'm damn shocked. I mean, these are so-privacy-thing, but they disclosed it! HAHA. Bravo~ But well, I prefer someone to love me instead :D AGREE AGREE?!! Yeahyeah, I'm so selfish - I KNOW! x)

I think I'm those kind who cant commit, cant handle, cant be bothered kind :D HAHAHAHA! Like my sister told me, "People like you, needs a mute boyfriend will do." HHOOOOHHHOOOOHOOO :D

Okay, though now its only 8pm. I feel like going to bed already. Have to wake up early for attachment ;( I feel so sad, angry, helpless, lazy whenever my alarm rings early in the morning.

2010-01-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH.

I was really angry last night.

But I must be possessed to send an sms that could kill myself.

That was a total lost of control,

and I only realised today when I'm sober.

I think I'm getting more paranoid each day.

My safeguards are even taller than me now.

2010-01-07T02:30:00.000-08:00

YES!

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY.

LEFT 2 WEEKS OF ATTACHMENT.

2010-01-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the many whom wished me Happy Birthday ytd on Facebook, via sms, emails, msn.

Totally appreciated, loves :D

Actually this year I have none of that 'oh-today-is-my-bday' feeling,

maybe because I'm stuck in IMH and its like 1pm to 9pm.

IMH is driving me crazy, not really bec of the patients.

But I would say, its more of the boredom part.

I'm located at the female ward :O

Okay, I wont talk much about it bec I dont wanna get sued :D

But listen up, its about 75% of the female patients are affected when they are divorced ;O

I going to sleep now since tml gonna wake up at 4.30pm ;(

AND I HAVE TO GO BACK SCHOOL !

2010-01-02T10:23:00.001-08:00

SO, YES, BULLSHIT. TOMORROW IS SUNDAY AND I HAVENT START IRONING MY NURSING UNIFORM. I HAVENT START WRITING MY OBJECTIVES, NEITHER DID I MANAGE TO DIG OUT MY NURSING WATCH & MY LOVELY NAME TAG WHICH HAS MY LOVELY PRETTY NAME CRAVED ON IT.

I JUST GOTTEN MY IPOD TOUCH AND I FREAKING HAPPY, BUT I TOTALLY HAS NO IDEA HOW TO PUT SONGS INTO THAT. NOT MUCH PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW HAS APPLE MP3, SO I DO NOT KNOW WHO THE WORLD I COULD ENQUIRE FROM.

I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP AT 10PM TOMORROW SINCE I DREAMT THAT I'M TERRIBLY LATE ON THE FIRST DAY OF ATTACHMENT.

OH LOVE, JUST PRAY THAT I ENJOYED THE WHOLE ATTACHMENT WITH THE TO AND FRO FROM SCHOOL FOR PROJECTS TOO ;)

I decided to drop the thought. Time to wake up from a fairytale.

Oh love, I'll bid you goodbye.

2010-01-01T09:55:00.000-08:00

Okay. A brand new year of 2010.

Actually I didnt have any significant thing done in 2009 :O

Well, let's just look forward ;)

Just some target for the year then.

1. Get my FTT & driving license.

2. Pass all modules successfully.

3. Learn Squash.

4. Able to cope with Jap lessons.

5. Survive in PRCP.

tata, night ;D

2009-12-27T01:16:00.000-08:00

Was watching Rain on youtube. Just being totally amazed.

Those who says that Rain is bullshit, YOU WATCH OUT (:

The improvement of his english is incredible.

He smiles, and I faint. hmmm, when did I get so crazy over him?

Either sec 1 or sec 2.. WOW, its about 5 years?!

I hope he can come to Singapore when I'm legally 21. (:

So I can have my own sweet time to save money!

Okay, its time to continue my ppt for dm patho.

I'm happily dragging for too long.

PLS DO NOT DRAG ME OUT FOR COUNTDOWN.

I WANT TO WATCH RAIN'S FASHIONSHOW (:

2009-12-20T07:22:00.000-08:00

Okay. I'm back, again with a confused mind.

Nope, its definitely not bec of love. HAHA.

I am just pretty down with the reality.

The fact that I have a group of friends, who are really shit.

On surface, I looked like I have lots of awesome friends.

Yeap, that's only appearance show.

Deep inside, they were up to many ideas to destroy you.

Making you upset and mentally being disturbed.

Making you psychologically tired and make full use of you.

So, what exactly do they benefit from it, I did wonder?

Many times, I thought to myself.

Is it better to sometimes not have too many friends around you?

And I think the answer is very much a yes, rather than a no.

But at least I have a few nice friends around me.

But for secrets, hahaha, I prefer to tell only one or two friend.

Or should I say I'm lucky to probably talk to only one - yeap, he's a guy.

A sweet, handsome, quiet guy - anyone interested? (:

I can do intro for anyone who desperately needs a guy to talk to.

But, pls do not bully him. HAHAHAHA.

As for his name, I would keep it confidential.

- Dear friend, thanks alot.

You're awesome.

2009-12-19T03:38:00.000-08:00

Wanted to blog quite alot of things, but somehow - I'm pure lazy.

I'm saving money, saving money.

Anyway fast ways to earn money? (:

I'm saving money to learn driving.

Anyway, went out with Buvan, Afifah, Nisha, Jannah to Orchard.

Pictures to be uploaded soon but see my mood first !
Buvan got her bond, and she was screaming on Mrt - SO MALU!
So we ate at fareast, and walked to PlazaSing.

Afifah&Buvan bought MAC comestics.

Freaky expensive, and I was like... hmmm...

When will I start putting on make ups?

I guessed, it gonna be no-way-soon thou I know I have a pretty pale look.

It's holiday now but I still have none of that feeling.

Because I have to go back sch for project.

Looking for informations now, hoping to settle as much portion of it as possible.

HAHAHA. Get indulged with ICYTOWER.

It's so fun & try screaming in front of your comp! ^^

I want to get out of Singapore. PLEASE!

That's one of my goals in my life.

I need to play hard with whatever money I have in future.

I'm prepared to get cancer, diabetics, or whatever tumour in future.

Life is so unpredictable, you'd nv know what's gonna happen the next minute.

People, stop grabbing on to your money.

You cant bring it with you when you die. (:

Loves,

Joey.

2009-12-12T09:39:00.000-08:00

Just came back from my cousin's party.
Was fun with all kinds of camwhorings.

I'm always sooo envying my cousins bec they are forever receiving really branded presents.

Her bf gave her a CHANEL necklace - walau.
HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm scanning through the picture sites that Charis gave me.

Found it pretty encouraging ;D

And I think my life is to get myself out of Singapore for some fresh air.
To study in a country where I could sit in front of a thousands of flower to read a book.

Waiting for the sunset that tells me that I've spent my day well today.

So I would carry my bag and hop onto a bus that takes me home.

And during this hours of journey, I could peep at the scenery where the sun shone everything to golden colour.

2009-12-12T01:00:00.000-08:00

This week finally ends.
It's damn a hectic week.
One more week to holiday! I thought we do not have any holiday till week 14!!(:
I just hoped that my biosci pass, bec I only studied endocrine & fluid electrolytes.
and the rest of the MCQ was done by tikam-tikam.

Went shopping & facial with Carol on friday.
Singapore is so small that I met CHARIS at 313somerset!
HAHAHAHAHAHA <3

DID I MENTION THAT MY DAD GOT AN IPHONE?
HE SUCKS MAN. I WANT IT, OR MAYBE JUST AN IPOD TOUCH PLS!
FOR WHAT HE NEEDS THAT! I guessed his phone is only for call in and read smses!
Arghh, damn jealous.

Suddenly has so many things that I wanna learn, thats merely because I knew I'm no longer young for all these and my schedule is becoming more and more hectic. Another half a year, and I'm done with schooling and heading down for 6months PRCP. Hey, this is really bad alright. To get yourself stuck in the wards is probably alright. But to think of the NIGHT-SHIFTS, .... ;( I'm feeling stressed. My life will be tilted upside down. I knew this is way too late to regret. I'm not regretting, just a bit sad when it comes to thinking about my so-pathetically-short-sleeping hours.

And probably when you get really down about your works, you cant find anyone to talk about it because they arent in the same workline as you do. So they would just doze off when you are talking about those matters ;(

Driving, Tennis, Squash, Japanese, photography. ;(
Which one should I start off with again?
AHHH, Japanese school results gonna send back to me!
So afraid that I got a FAIL for that because of my bad bad bad oral.
Let me get promoted to intermediate pls? (:
Anyone has a good and patience driving instructor that can recommend to me?
I'm saving and I'm almost there.... (:
My dad IS NOT GOING TO SPONSOR ME. ;(
That is damn mean. Nvm, I'm always born to be independent on money wise. ;(

Okay, heading down to YCK again today.
Not for school, but for claudia's birthday ;D
Sad to say that, its still Yiochukang despite the fact of heading there 5 days in a week ;O

2009-12-08T04:10:00.000-08:00

Alright, I'm done with my lab skill test & my researchmethod.

Seriously, I'm very very surprised that I passed both! ^^

Everything studied last minute, and researchmethod I started studying at 12pm till 3.30pm then head for the paper. WALAU.

When I clicked END ASSESSMENT, I was like ohnoohno, didnt dare to open my eyes.

then i slowly tilted my head to peep, I'm very shocked to see I've gotten B!

THIS IS CRAZY! I have to believe that I'm luck is done for the week.

Tml and thursday paper might be a hard paper.

I've gonna study for biosci. Wish me lucks alright!

Gonna catch sooo many movies since I havent use any of the tickets I've bought from Michelle.

Ninja assasin, 2012 [hope its still on screen], NewMoon[they say not nice;( ] .....

I have EIGHT TICKETS. HAHAHHAA. I've saved $8 ehs? HAHHAHA .

2009-11-30T09:05:00.000-08:00

Went bbqChicken with Charis today.

My tongue almost got burnt.

I'm abit moody in the morning.

Bec I feel that if someone doesnt have mutual trust with you,

then why bother to ask so much & then say she doubted your says?

That was hurtful but well, its up to her.

I know I wasnt making up a story, and that's good enough for me.

Went home for the 5hours break.

But then ended up in school bec Charis wanted to go school earlier to study.

So we bought bubbletea & decomposed @ mac.

After school, went for dinner.

Anyway, I would like to use this chance to nominate my dad as the WORLD#1 DAD.

bec I totally believe that he is the best that no daddys would do that.

I tongpang his car today to school.

He threw me at Yishun MRT.

Refused to drive me to school.

Thus, I need to waste my fare card again.

After almost a year of unhappiness with a group of people,

I managed to talk to someone about it till I'm contented.

Thats cool you know.

Something deep down in ur chest is off right now.

My ventilation is better now.

Telling one good listener is better than telling two loud speakers.

I'm feeling hungry now.

2009-11-28T10:26:00.000-08:00

Before I logged in, I thought of wanting to say alot of things.

After I've logged on, I do not know what to type.

HAHAHAHHAA.

Okay, this is stupid.

So what?!

FRIDAY WENT TO EVELYN HOUSE!

Walau, her house is darn high-class.

All high-technology.

Need not be a very big house, but its damn cozy.

Those who claimed that your house is hi-tech, sorry - are you sure? (:

HAHAHA, nice house, nice view, nice food, nice day.

But one thing, I'm gonna untag all facebook photo taken on that day.

I kept on rolling up my eyes, and just nice they just loved to capture a shot of it.

Baby takeshi is damn cute ehs, but he looks damn UNCOMFORTABLE when I carried him.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I'm so not fit to be a nanny ;O

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School is hectic.

Exams & tests coming.

Attachment coming.

Christmas coming.

2010 is COMING! ^^

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Friends whom I know so well,

seemed like a stranger to me suddenly.

That was when I began to feel,

that they are so selfish.

Life is short.

Being selfish to get everything yours,

doesnt mean you could bring it along when you are dead.

Share what you have.

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So it was just another day walking through the Northpoint underpass.

Looks like there are more and more people selling tissues.

Probably 1 or 2 person, I could afford.

But looks like there are 5 of them in a row.

Everyone would just stare at you at give a chase after you.

So I decided to see when they are alone then buy ;O

Fair, and I will be safe too.

HAHAHHAA (:

They always made me feel bad.

Whenever I feel like getting something nice like food or stuff,

I walked through that area & I will just drop the idea.

I'm so nice ehs.

2009-11-25T09:25:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! ^^

I'm excited - though I'm not celebrating ;)

My sister is doing all sorts of decorations already ;O

My sister sat there for hours just to spray something out.

Outcome.

I HATE MY TIMETABLE.
GIVE ME AT LEAST 1 FULL DAY FOR ME TO REST.
I'M SUFFOCATING.

My dear SANTA, could you put a living husky into a sock on christmas eve? ^^

2009-11-15T03:10:00.000-08:00

A BIG STONE SANK TO THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

IT BECAME SO HEAVY THAT IT GOT SHATTERED TOTALLY.

WHY MUST I MESS UP MY OWN ORAL?

I'M BEING POSSESSED.

I'm trying to agree with my shit ability.

2009-11-14T10:42:00.000-08:00

I am a very cool person.

Tomorrow is my jap final exam.

I thought tomorrow is written paper.

but I just realised its oral.

So I went searching all the 12 chapters and I almost died from answering them. But very fortunately, I found JONATHAN to be my translater. He wants to kill me bec he wants to slp and I kept bugging him. o.o HAHAHAHA. THANKS LAH, LIVING DICTIONARY!

I have decided to buy a new japanese dictionary and DUMP my current dictionary if I managed to pass up to higher stage of that Jap. BUT it looks like its very impossible already.

WISH ME GOOD LUCKS.

I HOPE I DONT KEEP ON ASKING THE EXAMINER TO REPEAT. PLS DONT FAIL ME.

GOODNIGHT.

2009-11-09T07:54:00.000-08:00

I AM VERY ANGRY NOW.

I curse you, curse you, curse you.

ROARS. ROARS. ROARS. ROARS.

!!!!!!!ROARS!!!!!!!!

2009-10-28T08:53:00.001-07:00

Today is definitely a tiring day for me.
Mum woke me up at 6.15am and I managed to sleep for another extra 15minutes.
So I went to 'bolstered' my friend, who was happily sleeping on my sofa bed. ;O
By right, we actually off lights at 1.45am, but we chatted till 2am. ;O
And I did warned her to adjust the aircon temp if its too unbearable, ADJUST IT!
but she didnt dare ehs? (:
-not my business. ;D

I dont understand why this semester needs STATISTIC , and also RESEARCH METHODS.
Why do I totally detest these 2 modules? I totally hate MATHS !
I have rot without maths for 2 years and they started asking us for mean, median, modes, modules. wth. whatever that got to do with M - yucks.
I heard the numbers and my eyes went smaller and smaller - then, my head dropped onto the table & I slept for 1.5hours . ;O

Down with heavy flu that I used up 4 packets of tissues, and I thought my nose was about to drop. Went to AMKHUB to meet someone and meanwhile went to the pharmacy to get some as-strong-as-possible flu drug. So I saw this PANADOL FLU MAX. Its NEW, so I decided to try as I thought a good drug and stop my tapwater faster. SO, I paid, then ate it! The packing claimed that it is NON-DROWSY. But about 30mins to 45min, my eyes almost closed when I was walking. I was at the platform and I found myself cant stand straight ;O
2 hours later, I reached home. AND I FELT THAT MY HEART IS GONNA JUMP OUT OF MY MOUTH. Its palpitating so HARD, so FAST that I need not cover my ears to hear the pumping. Suddenly, I feel S.O.B ! SO I WENT GASPING THE AIR. AND I STARTED TO COUGH NON-STOP SUDDENLY. ITS A DRY-COUGH. Starting was fine, till I started to cough very badly and my chest HURTS. There is this sharp pain that radiated from near my Left Chest to my right mid-clavicular line x 2nd intercostal. And I went frozen, cos its the pain made me cant talk, cant move suddenly. It was about 8sec duration but its like a 3min long thing to me. It's like I've swallowed a needle and the needle went straight into my lung after passing heart.

I am not trying to conduct a bio or pharmaco lecture here.. just that... The moral of the story I wanna say is that. SINCE ITS A NEW DRUG, YOU SHOULD NOT TRY IT. I'm a good source of it, and its ridiculous for me to DIE bec I TOOK THE DRUG just bec of FLU. Die nvm, but dont die in a tragic manner ;O

2009-10-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

Alright, here comes my grumbling again.
Hey bloggers, do u feel sometimes feel that we are contradicting ourselves?
I think I am one of them ;(

When I started this new link, I thought not much people would link me.
After that, I realised that 80% of whom I know, had happily linked me for quite some times.
And suddenly, I got that kind of feeling that I'm being spied.
Yeap, sounds like I'm crazy.
Of course, I have a blog bec I want to grumble.
But when too many people read, I felt being spied.
But if I felt being spied, I should just locked the bs up.
But if I lock the bs up, it doesnt make sense to have a bs.
Ahhhhh, hope at least one or two gets what I meant.

Over the time, I think I'm unable to really speak up my mind and thoughts through bloggings.
Some stuff really pisses me off. For instance, let's say you know someone for probably a few years, and both of you are very close. But when he or she pisses you off, you just cant blog it out and it will be kept inside ur chest for sometimes. If you dont blog, then you will have that kind of feeling that why cant I let the person knows what is wrong with him or her. But when you blog, its like I'm being totally mad & unethical to do that to someone else bec of humanrights! ARGH!

Nah, I have no complaints right now. Just suddenly feel that I have completely change into another person after entering nursing! Kind of frustrated with myself. When you study too much of the basic laws, you tend to abide it. Damn. Whatever ethics or some shits that you have learnt. And after so many psychology modules, you will tend to keep everything to yourself like angers and sadness. So blog is something that really get partial portion off my chest.

Alright, I have only started talking at the age of 4. So yeah, I've talked alot in schools in the past yeah? Especially rubbish bec I'm an expert. And that is to compensate for the years when O was mute. After entering poly, I start to quieten alot alot alot. Though I smile alot nowadays, I feel like speaking up more. But I'm kind of having that ''lazy-to-open-mouth" syndrome. And alot of things are affecting me seriously nowadays. And I dont really have guy-friends to really discuss about it. Not that I dont have friends, but sometimes it just really irk me when I have to repeat the whole story again then explain why and how I feel in that manner. And sometimes when you speak to a girl-friend, they will add on rubbing salt to the wound. AHHHHHHHHHHH! Eh, something is really wrong with me.

Whatever it is right now - I dont know what I'm typing too.

2009-10-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

One week of academic had gone, I'm happy!
Another 17 weeks to go.
What's worst? I've got my IMH attachment on my birthday week next year!
Totally ruined my anxious feeling for it man!

So what did I do in my lab today?
We need to get each others blood to test. HAHA.
Erms, actually its just a drop.
But its kind of pain to have a needle stab in with a tingling pain sensation.

Week 1 has gone. Week 5 is my ICA presentation ;O
So its like... erm, gonna really chiong for it.
I need nice grades though I know it will be pretty tough.

In the consideration to snip half my hair length away into the dustbin.
Anyway, swam in school on Tuesday.
So cool, love it man. But I'm darker already.
1hour of swimming totally wasted my 8 DAYS effects of whitening.

I am still in the mood of holiday.
I want to goooo ice-skating - no money.
Joyce wanna go stjames - no money.
Michelle wanna go genting - no money.

2009-10-13T09:04:00.000-07:00

I HATE MY TIMETABLE.
ALRIGHT, I'M TRYING TO CURSE ALL THE LECTURERS WHO PLAYED THEIR PART IN CREATING THIS KIND OF SHIT TIMETABLE. EXCUSE ME, ARE YOU GUYS MAD? OR YOU GUYS WANT US TO BE MAD?

HOW CAN YOU ARRANGE SOMETHING FROM 8AM TO 6PM LIKE FOR 3 DAYS IN A WEEK? OH SHIT. SHIT. SHIT. SHIT. I RATHER GET MYSELF STUCK IN ATTACHMENT WHERE I START AT 7AM AND ENDS AT ONLY 3PM. OR EVEN 1PM TO 9PM ONLY!

THEY THINK WE ARE MADE OF STAINLESS STEEL.

2009-10-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

MICHAEL JACKSON'S THIS IS IT.

Okay, I just cant wait for this.

I've made a reservation of these tickets on the 30th Oct ;)

My mum paid for the tickets since we wanted to watch this badly.

HAHAHHAHAHAHA <3

For those who always says NO to MJ, then too bad.

I wont invite you to watch this.

A $10 to watch this is definitely more worthy than seeing the real concert eh? (:

Time to chiong for my japanese Homework.

I cant wait for my jap electronic dictionary to reach meeeeee ;D

Okay, homeworking now. I'm kind of hungry.

Shall NOT have supper today bec I'm having that for the last 3weeks continuously.

I need to watch my weight ! (:

ttatatatatattatatata!

2009-10-08T09:40:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I find it hard to survive in my house.

I dont like it when I have to apologise for everything.

I do not voice out doesnt mean I agreed on everything.

I dont take extra money from my dad, doesnt mean I'm awesomelly loaded. When I'm fucking broke, I didnt even give a damn to open my mouth to ask for it, bec I will never ever be able to get a single cent. I've tried once, and I got fcuking screams and yells from my dad in the middle of the night. When I went out to strike my time to earn some extra cash for my own stuff that I wanted, they said I waste money.

Excuse me, you should know that I always save like a fcuk time just to buy something that I wanted badly. And there my dad would claim that I'm using his money. And when I'm working and in the meanwhile saving for something, he would claim how holly I am in saving money, and he starts to dock my allowance.

When it comes to my sisters, I sometimes feel like strangling them. They are very alike, smart in similar subjects, great in studying, great at arts, piano or whatever. Yeah, I'm just a 3mins person. Squash, ballet, hiphop, studies - nothing is successful. JUST SHUTUP. But I use my own hands to earn and buy whatever fuck I want. At least till now, from sec2 holidays I started working. then later sec 4, I started working at bakery then later at peachgarden. From mid november all the way to april. AND EVEN WHEN I'M IN NURSING NOW, I'M STILL CONSIDERED WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL. But my younger sister done no-job before, and she doesnt know th meaning of hardwork money. So what is so big about study?

GO AHEAD AND CRY YOUR LUNGS OUT?

I wont even do CPR for you.

I seriously DO NOT LIKE IT, AND I HATE bringing up family matters.
But sometimes, YOU JUST DONT HAVE THE RIGHT PERSON TO TALK TO!

For today's incident, I dont think I'm at any wrong.

What did I say that could make you cry like a fcuking 3hours?

HILARIOUS!

I said one sentence that I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO USE THE SCANNER THAT'S WHY I ASK YOU TO HELP ME SCAN. IF NOT WILL I ASK YOU TO SCAN?

But, did I say ANYTHING else?

Oh holly, you cried for 3 hours. Are you turning blind?

tell me if I did say anything else.

Yeah, your tears moved the whole world except me.

Dream on if you are hoping me to APOLOGISE to you.

Go around and say how bad I am, how fcuk I am also can.

I just cant be bothered.

BUT DO YOU KNOW WHEN MUM ASK ME TO APOLOGISE TO YOU, I HELD MY TEARS AND SWALLOWED IT BACK ? I DID NOTHING WRONG, BUT WHY MUST I HAVE TO APOLOGISE TO YOU? KILL ME, AND I WILL APOLOGISE TO YOU.

I WILL EVEN KNEEL DOWN.

I dont say doesnt mean I'm alright.

I didnt disagree doesnt mean that I agreed.

I kept my mouth shut doesnt mean I have no objection.

I dont cry easily doesnt mean I dont cry at all.

My attitude is something that you all trained me to be, didnt you guys realised?

Just bec I'm the middle one, and I will get comparisons either with the elder sis or younger sis.

Forever, I will get comparisons.

EVEN BOYFRIENDS, MY AUNTIES WILL COMPARE.

WHAT THE FCUK IS THE WORLD GOING ON?

-oh, your elder sis first time part-tall ah?

- I dont know. maybe 17?

- then what about you?

-none at all.

- oh, why you so slow? must hurry ma.

- I dont need a guy in order to live.

- You see your sister you not jealous ah? you dont want to be as happy as her ah.

- For what?

- aiya, sister do what, then you also must follow ma.

- then if my sister is a lesbian then I must be lesbian too mehs.

- haiyo. you everything lose to ur sisterS, but loveydovey must win them ma.

- sry, I think I need to go answer my phone. {WTF}

If I have an option.

If I were a millionaire.

I will get myself a house in a land and make myself a sheepherd.

I'm totally free and happy.

2009-10-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

I went to Fareast plaza to shop with my mum. Managed to eye on something big - a big bag. Buying big bags is the best thing ever in my life. HAHHAA. The bag was like 50% off, and I gotten it at only$15 (:
The quality was good. But I was pretty angry when that salegirl folded my bag and put into the carrier. Well, I think that's bec I do not like my bag to be ill-treated.

And and, I SAW A GUY WHO LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE RAIN! Alright, he speaks Korean too. I was totally amazed and got the impulse to woohoo him. LOL. Though he looked like a photocopy of RAIN, he is much shorter than the real RAIN. Rain is about 180cm, while this imitation one was about 172cm? (:
But he has nice body shapes like RAIN - nice chest.

So I was talking about height, and I rmb that during attachment happenings. Eugene was saying that I was short for girls bec I said guys below 175cm is short. I knew I was short, but well, 175cm is just nice for MY height, but I mean yeah, short guys dont give that sense of security right! Idiot. He just dont get what I mean. Blahblah, he's not tall either! HAHAHHAHAA!

He is such a failure, dont he ever know that girls like to wear HEELS? A pair of heels or wedges is about 8 to 9cm high! If a guy is only 10cm taller than you, and you wear heels. I swear, guys will feel inferior. MUAHAHAHHAAA.

Stop my nonsense. I need to print out some documents alr.
byeeseeeeee!

2009-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

I THINK I WILL FAIL MY JLPT4 !
I'm totally stuck with all these though I'm studying it for like 10months.
I need to complete my homework & notes asap.
I'm procastinating, my habit continues its repetitions.

I dont feel well now, feeling a bit of feverish.
Probably due to facing the pool for a windy moment for like half an hour in last night.
I'm currently re-experiencing sudden palpitations again.
HAHAHA, I'm not going to die easily. ;D

Was browsing through my laptop files.
And saw this sakura photo under my received file, and I found it pretty nice.
Cant rmb who sent it or its my sister's file or something.
Probably those people who always dreamt of getting married in Japan can get their wedding held during Sakura season. Who knows if Vday also falls during the season? (:

Was bloghopping to see how my friends are - in the noon.
So, I realised that many have changed - so much. ;D
And of course, they are busier, they are happier.
And my life, is always that busy.

Alright, fine. I'm going to have a short nap.
My back is aching. I guessed I've hurt my back real bad.
And it had been like a few weeks, and I hurt it during my attachment.
That shows how hardworking I am in the hospital.

2009-10-04T12:11:00.000-07:00

I was watching a documentary film on 911 incident - World trade Center collapse.
If you think its funny, then I guessed you should just bang the wall now.
Before I watched this, my 'knowledge' on this incident was very brief.
After I watched that, I totally saw the whole entire happening.
The whole thing took 102minutes in total for both buildings to collapse.

I was so shocked when I see more than 10 people jumped off the buildings bec of the heat.
Aww, my heart just got stabbed. Like ____ ! From 105th storey and they just jumped off.
The crowds at the ground level seemed to be enjoying the free show that they thought were dedicated to them. Just when the securities wanted to evacuate them, the crowds just couldnt be bothered. And when the buildings collapse, they started running and tramping away and that was how many of them died of being stepped over.

Ah, shucks. It just made me feel terribly uncomfortable, that's something which abused me psychologically.