WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING TO ME?
NOTHING IS HAPPENING TO ME , BUT WHY DO I FEEL A DEEP-INTO-VEINS-FUNNY-SAD-EMOTIONS INSIDE ME? Omo, I wonder if I'm being possessed. Feel like laughing yet inside felt sour? People said that weird feelings come when you are about to go. OMG. So, I'm gonna blog it here in case I'm gonna die soon. HAHAHAHA. And yes, what the hell am I typing now?

Just chatted with Handsome. I just simply love to disturb him bec whenever I msn him, even though its just craps, I felt like I am ME, MYSELF. I could feel that I'm alive, I'm existing. *ID protected* Sometimes, I should count myself lucky to have some friends who can tolerate my horrible nonsense & my weird habits. Anyway, this is the first time I felt so restraint to tell him some stuff bec he definitely would just say I'm childish. Omo, I'm dying to spit everything out.

Anyway, I bumped onto 1sec sch friend that day. I thought he was considered a little quiet. HAHAHA, but he wasnt! I took a long time to debate about taxing a relationship could be, even though I'm not experienced! I almost died on spot, bec I'm really bad at articulation. Okay, there's nothing for me to bring it up actually. HAHAHAHA.

I think my elder sister is laughing at me for not able to get a boyfriend at the age of 19. But she didnt know that I'm very not into these shits. For why in the world must I give in and act like small little girl?! Oh no, I prefer to be myself. I my me mine! There's no way I will depend on guys. NEVER! I still prefer to care about myself more than taking care of someone :O pls do not bring in my soon-to-be occupation topic. HAHAHHAA. Is this the reality you wanted? No, this is not I wanted. I'm thinking of earning more money & retire earlier. But once I retired, it means that my lifespan on earth will be .............

Am I dying soon? I think I have some anxiety-disorder...
seriously........ i dont want school to end............
I dont want night shifts.... I still prefer sleeping in lecture halls........