Dear daddy,

I dont know what's going on . Have you ever wondered why I didnt like to talk much at home? Yeah, you are the reason. I do not see any needs for you to scream when you open your mouth, really. I'm not saying you not open your mouth, but I just hope that you could use a nicer tone at home, to us. You dont come everyday, do you? So I dont see a need for you to scream when seeing us.

Since young, though you dont extremely dote us, it is pretty obvious that you a bit more concern over the eldest while my mum will dote on the youngest one. No, dont be mistaken. I'm not complaining about the equality at home. Neither am I jealous, bec I'm used to it for the past 19 years. But I hate it when in front of our relatives, you treated us like a good daddy who says YES to our everything. I hate how fake and hideous fact this is.

I dont know how much you earn per month, since you claimed that you only earn $1500 per month while the number of Rolex watches and cars you have do made me doubt it. Oh, whatever. It's not as if I'm aiming for your money. If you do not know, I dont care about it. I know you are extremely stingy over money matters, and also getting over angry small little amount of $100 when youngest daughter wants to learn drawing. I'm sick of this nonsense that made no single sense over why a dad can stop a child for doing what they like. I want to learn many things, and I know I have to get the money myself, somehow. And I hate listening to your yellings on phone or face to face when I want to ask you for money. So I went on doing my part time job at age of 14. I was slogging for salary as low as $4/hour in a restaurant as a waitress. Because I wanted to re-learn my ballet again, I even requested the manager dont give me offdays unnecessarily. The money I earned, ended up learning hiphop dance. It's so expensive that I decided to drop out after 2 months. Then I decided to start saving for my braces but in no time, school started - I quitted. Of course, the money slowly spent off since its really abit left.

After sec 4, I started working again - in bakery & in a restaurant. For the sake of my braces, I endured. Ah, finally I have the money for the first braces downpayment, so I went to the dental. The dental was pretty new at that time and I get the package bec it includes xrays, retainer, moulds, braces and whitening, which total up to $5000. I paid $2000 for the first payment, then since its instalment, I shall slowly work and pay. I didnt think of wanting you to pay bec you always say later and later for many years, so I might as well pay myself and not see your mood. When you found out that I went to get my braces done, you raged and claimed that I am very rich to do all these things without letting you know. Hey dad, do you not know on the first day of my work that I'm working for braces? And after know that I did my braces, you asked me to quit my job and focus on studies and you will pay the rest. To make things straight to the point, you were the one who asked me to quit and you yourself say will pay and note that you paid the remaining $3000. Yes, its not a small amount but you told all my relatives that I'm wasting your money and doing things without letting you know and said my braces cost you $5000.

On the first day of O level, I broke my specs. Yeah, O level. So all I need to hurry is to get a spec on spot. The new spec with frames on spot cost me $200. Do you rmb that you screamed at the top of your lungs at me? If I were to just change the lenses, it will cost $130/pair. Bec its urgent for the sake of O level, I really ANYHOW grab a famed-specs that cost $70 more.

This time round - crowning. My dentist charged me $950 instead of $1200 cos I'm still under treatment for braces though I'm now already wearing retainer phase. You already screamed at me at that time and you firmly said that its only $400 in the dental market. I did a research around, calling about 40 dental clinics and the cheapest I got was $835 after 7% GST. I called you today, and you yelled in phone like nobody business. Why is it that you do not understand that when my molar tooth cracked, I'm super in pain and only the DENTAL that I KNOW operates on Sundays? It's a difference of $100. Yes, $100 enables you to buy lots of stuff. But, can you please kindly spare a thought for me? I'm in pain, and I'm not like the rest who can take anagelsic drugs. If you are so not happy about the $100, I will raise that money. Dont scream on phone, I hate it and I bet you screamed in your company so all your workers looked at you and thus they will be scared of you, cos via this, you gained power. No dad, I dont need these.

Please let me remind you, the time I get money from you was for braces - $3k.
I only started getting pocket money from you since poly, while I struggled my pocket money in secondary school with what my mom, your wife, gaved.

If I have a chance, and when I have the money. Trust me, I will fly away to somewhere where I'm all alone with myself. I will live better, healthier and happier. I dont want to be heartless, but you made me wanna stay alone with myself. You destroyed my thoughts of having a boyfriend. To me, all guys seemed scary and useless now. To me, seems like all guys are stingy. To me, all guys are as bad tempered as you. I'm not that stupid to get myself into troubles with guys that have any characteristc traits of yours. I'm afraid, one day - I might commit suicide bec I see your shadow in him.

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